Thursday, 26 July 2018

Post on comment left by lovetosubmit3 July 2018

so i/we received a nice comment from one of blog reader’s. which i had no idea or thought anyone would read let alone some have click following! for those 2 so far again “thank you”.

the following comment was left on a blog post entitled “One Sign you might be a cuckold! the Porn Preference poated April 25 2018” 

Everything below in Bold is the original comment from lovetosubmit3

Just found your blog. I guess I'm an ex-cuckold now. Wife quit the lifestyle but I very much crave and reflect fondly of our time with her having sex with younger men. - well lovetosubmit3 thanks for reading my diary blog, haven’t been doing for long so have not missed that much. ex-cuck, that must be tough as hell if you were living it and enjoying it! so sorry to hear that and do understand that life will always change things that might effect us or not. can totally under stand the craving part as well as many other men who might not even be living the cuckold life. thanks for the insight on her desire at the time of play! cool to hear how other play as we all play differently.

I will try to get through your posts, as i'm interested in how you got involved/started in the LS as well as how you live it out as day to day. we we evolved actually we were swinger’s on and off but as much as I enjoyed other women I found I really enjoyed more watching my wife with other’s and enjoying herself so freely! as we have a children in our house hold we live the day to day more low key as possible (kids are smart so don’t think your fooling them if you let one thing slip).

But related to porn, I recently had the epiphany that just about all male/female porn is cuckold to a certain extent. It involves a fit, hung male having sex with a ridiculously sexy woman in front of a crew of a bunch of men, and then it's mostly consumed by men. In short, the bull/stud is the envy of hundreds of other men who jerk off to HIS sex life. Just think about that for a second. part of this I must agree never looked at it that way… but hell is not true that we would rather watch a well hung guy fuck the sexy ladies than watch a under endowed male doing so!

Backing up a bit in my formative years I rented a bunch of porn tapes, late 80s early 90s era. I realized that girl-girl was simply not something that turned me on. So I would screen my tape rentals, looking at the porn stars and I would literally count the male/female ratio. I developed some sort of proclivity to MFM. I just thought it was so hot to see two hard cocks "competing" for the attention of a single female. And after all, a woman is far, far, more sexually capable of handling two males than the converse. we totally agree, Mrs also want to see the women with large natural breast as well! and as mentioned above when in our swinging years, i learn to read what turned me on more.

At any event, I rented a movie where a hetero couple were going at it near a pool and a well known male star "snuck up" on them, was turned on and jerked himself off while hiding. And I was so turned on by that that I ejaculated across the room. very cool and do understand how that would be such a turn on. Not only do I enjoy the idea of two men and one woman, my submissive side gets really turned on by the idea of one of the males being sexually superior to the other. Examples: one male has to wear a condom, while the other does not; one man gets her pussy while the other one gets a blowjob or a handjob. I guess that is a form of cuckolding as I suggest above. yes it is if you look at it that way. but to the young and horny they would never read more into that sex act's.

It was not until much later that I actually discovered true cuckolding porn where the "husband" was "forced" to watch his wife get fucked by a superior male. And I do like that - a lot. well it is very hot to think of as well as being in that place! 

Thouhts?  so my thought are like how your mind thinks and for anyone reading your comment will also be enlighten, as we grow we learn, some people never get into the wilder side of sex like us, so do! when we do enter that phase we learn  more about or like and desires and test the water's till we become the cuckold we are today!  we played lightly.. more just watching her with other's then we added stuff slowly by testing. pegging, chastity cage, light submissive.. etc. 

today i a proud submissive bi cuckold who will do almost and i mean almost anything that please my Mrs/ Mistress. we delved in area's we had talked about never wanting and found we do enjoy now!

please remember how we play is because we have a lot of love as well as trust in each other.. never go in if you are not on the both level field, it can go wrong in so many ways.


Thank again to lovetosubmit3 for this post!

Monday, 23 July 2018

sorry for my hiatus

i apologize for length of  time since my last post. if anything, i'm unsure how/if i will go into the full reasons why but will at least find the time soon to write a brief reason.  

to say that we've had a rough road for the past few weeks in our house hold is not the full reason as normal everyday life will always show it head, be it for a good or a bad reasons. that's how life works.


also would like to welcome to that took the courage to follow me for what ever there reason are!

so thank you for following me/US ... John S

and so thank you for following me/US ... Paul Stevens

Wednesday, 13 June 2018

June 13 2018 Diary update - Coffee Delivery ???

Start Day Locked in Chastity: May 11 2018
Day: 34 DAYS to date.

11:18 am

okay so this is weird this literally just happen an hour and half ago, i had walked away from my desk to deal with something in the back. when i came back there was Starbucks Coffee cup on my desk, found out later it actually was a Caramel Macchiato!

i asked my secretary where did the coffee came from, her reply it came by Uber as was told it was for you so i put on your desk. it came shortly after you left to go into the back.

written on it very clearly with a black marker "For the Cuckold Husband ;)", my head raced a million miles thinking what the hell. try calling the Mrs/Mistress and it just rang and in the back ground i hear a comment from my secretary i was unable to hear clearly as my focus was on try to get a hold of my wife with no luck.

i asked my secretary "what was that?".

her reply was "That was nice of your wife to be thinking of you and left you a special note on the cup for you!"

yes she knows i'm a cuckold, but i still wanted to crawl under my desk and hide.

Text came in from my wife that read " Sweetie stop calling i'm busy in a hotel room with a large friend, he's the one who bought you the coffee and got it sent to your work also took the rest of the day off and might be home a bit later".

mind is racing.. still so will leave off for now! will upload a photo of the coffee cup when i get a chance!


Edit Diary Post: 4:00 PM  adding this photo of the cup on my desk that i took.

no word or text from the Wife/Mistress

Tuesday, 12 June 2018

Dear Diary: June 12 2018

Start Day Locked in Chastity: May 11 2018
Day: 33 DAYS to date.

so it's been hectic lately in the household and have a few post that i'm working on but sadly as well behind on having them finished.

did notice that i seem to have a bit more traffic of people checking out my online diary, but sadly no comment good or bad as of yet!

did notice on my/our stats that the word so far people are searching to find my Diary is  the words "cuckold living".


Tuesday, 5 June 2018

June 04 2018 – last night’s dream

Start Day Locked in Chastity: May 11 2018
Day:26 DAYS to date

Dear Diary:
being locked in chastity has done my head in so many ways this time, so not really sure why or the reason this time around. we been playing like this since the fall of 2010, i been locked in chastity way longer than this before longest for me was just under 2 months.

maybe because i been teased and given more attention by my Wife/Mistress or maybe the new smallest stainless steel cage we own. really not sure why and honestly it would be a “freaken” guess to give you one straight answer.

so the further i fall even further into my submissive role another dream rise’s with me when i open my eyes to the tightness of the cage and hardness trying it’s best to fill it!

the dream i vividly woke up to this morning is written to the best of my memory without changing or embellishment.

this is being written as i sit in my office at work in spare moments i have throughout the day hopping i have it completed before i go home.

The Dream #3
i’m asleep but feel the bed shaking ever so lightly and a noise, it seems a bit familiar to me but can’t figure it out exactly. i also feel the light breeze coming in through the open widow on my side of the bed as well as the noise from the bird’s chirping and the squirrels make their funny little cry.

as i roll over to see what the shaking about and noise i slowly start to wake, i am caught off guard by the vision my eye’s adjust to seeing and it a damn hot and very erotic sight to be seen. i truly wanting to just take it all in and be ever so quite as a afraid it will go poof and disappear from my line of sight.

there in my sight line is my beautiful Wife/Mistress her top raised up above her beautiful breast her hot breasts exposed to the air and her pierced nipples hard,  engorged & elongated form her self-stimulation. her left hand can be clearly seen cupping her left breast and between squeezing the whole breast and move and puling and twisting her pierced nipple.

i look up into her face to see if she saw or even noticed me watching her now. her beautiful face contorted in clear passion, her eyes tightly shut and her whole face to me looks like she just feeling the moment she was clearly in.

as i move my eyes slowly down her body going from the view of her face to view her neck, then the bunched up top above her breast and then down to her stomach half way her right arm comes into my view and I follow that to see it has found it way into her shorts she was sleeping in last night.
and “ah-a” that the what the noise is she was masturbating which is a very extremely rare thing for her to do on her own, her shorts moving in different motion’s sometimes fast some time slow, her hand look like it changed and or moved to the rhythm of the strokes she was giving herself.

i was enthralled by her action’s and watching her almost nude body her breathing getting heavier and her chest rising more and a flushing of color showing up  just about her breasts. with what was going on i got scared as and looked past her body to check our bedroom door to see if it was open like we usually do. it was closed and by the looks of it locked from what i could tell, then i was jarred from that view by the fact she raised her hips off the bed into a bit of an arch and both hands on either side slid the shorts off to her middle thigh and then a leg came up and it sort of came off by the one leg sliding it down so she was able to spread her legs apart and the beauty of her pubic area was now clearly in my view.

i marveled at the area as it looked smoother than i  have never seen in real life other, as she continued to take care of her needs with and concern or knowledge i even present. as i continue to stare at her hand movement on her pubic mound, she starts to moan and i look up towards her face to see her lips parted in the sexual state one can get when one wish to take in air and exhale those deeper breaths from their erotic sate.

and then she starts to speak in like she having sex with someone, telling them “deeper “


“of fuck that feels so good”


“god I need your cock way more than I ever gat already as my husbands is so fucking small, it’s pathetic”


“Oh God Deeper that feels so good”


“Faster, harder please”


“Ohhhh I going to cummmm, fill me up with your load of spermmmmm”


“Fuck yeah!!”


“Yeahhhhh  that’s it oh Goddddd”


and then I woke up in pain, my cage was being pulled and ensuing pulling my balls even tighter by the locking ring.


** Please if you like or understand us, leave a comment please for my Mistress of I to read and reply if needed!

Monday, 4 June 2018

June 02 2018 Diary Update

Start Day Locked in Chastity: May 11 2018
Day: 25 DAYS

Dear Diary,

Mistress teased my relentless all weekend, with various times being told to go put on my nipples (clover/Butterfly Clamps) and either pulling on them or putting on some very homemade weights on them and having me do chores. 

she also through out the weekend would grab my crotch and say "hey little man were that big hard cock of your's?"

and then reply her self before i could respond "Oh yeah you don't really have a cock that's any use to me, that why i fuck and suck real size cock's when i want!"

and during my 2 times taking my morning shower, unlocked under her supervision she both times got a had full of conditioner and stroked my "clit" as she called this weekend and on and off like she was trying to give me a ruined orgasm.

when my right leg started shaking uncontrollably from the stimulation and being so turn on. she would stop and said "ok time to rinse and get out and dry off and get locked up again."

sunday morning she actually had to use ice on me as it would not get soft to put back on the cage.


p.s. i learning to be a pain slut, as i'm really enjoying the nipple clamps these days. an Mistriss is really enjoying watching my erotic suffering as well.

Sunday, 27 May 2018

May 27 2018 - Wife/Mistress foot care

Start Day Locked in Chastity: May 11 2018
Day: 17 DAYS

Dear Diary: LOL so this evening i was told to take care of Mistress feet this evening.

the care to be provided would be using and emery type stone to take the roughness off the bottom of her soles due to the fact of wearing sandals again,  also to do the sanding and cutting of her toe nails and then to apply skin moisturizer and rub that into her skin as i massage them.

and to do so nude and with the clover nipple clamps on as well as still locked in chastity.

during the act of doing each step i was to come up and give her a kiss only after she checked that i had done a great job on each step (foot).

each time i did a task and took my time double checking myself to see if it was done to the best of my abilities, i would then speak to her as she ignored me in general playing mah-jong on her tablet.

“how this for you Mistress?” i would say to her.

her reply would be “well what do you think my small man?”, then she would check it herself. Sometimes she would make a comment other times she would just say “come here and get your kiss my cuckold!”

i would crawl across the bed to face to give her a kiss, as she kissed me each time she would reach up and pull the chain slowly but very firmly. each time it she pulled on the chain harder and each time i moaned in her mouth as we kissed and as she pulled away she had a sexy cheshire cat smile and said next foot.

i said “thank you Mistress” and did the next task.

at the end when all was done to her request she gave me a big long kiss and the hardest pull on the chain. then she said “so your reward cucky for doing such a great job on my feet you may take a deep inhale my cunt but “No” contact what so ever down there!!”.

as i got on my side and put my head between her thighs with about an inch between her woman hood and my nose i started to take a deep breath, as i did so she pulled on the chains slowly but also the hardest yet while i was coming to the end of my lung capacity.

i could feel tears well up and trying to stifle the cry as i wanted to let out, but kids were asleep in their rooms and did not want then to hear what their parents maybe up to.

when i exhaled as I could not inhale anymore, she lifted her right leg and place it on my chest as she let go of the chain at the same time and then proceed to push me hard away and stating “okay put all the stuff away and go brush your teeth and get ready for bed”.

i did what was asked of me and then when i re-entered the bedroom she said come here let me remove the chain. she gave me a kiss pulled on the chain then she stopped kissing me and said “stay locked onto my eyes and keep them open”.

as i looked into her beautiful brown sexy eyes she pulled the chain harder and harder until my cock was bouncing in the small stainless steel chastity cage and my eyes welled up and started rolling back into my head as the pain and erotic pleasure came thundering into my chest and soul.

when i really did think i couldn’t  take anymore she stopped and cupped both nipples and played with them and then released them fast together almost made me cum for the plain and pleasure of that.

past me the chain into my open palm and then said “ put these away and then it’s time for you to go get some sleep cucky!”

it funny for some reason did not take me as long to fall asleep than i thought it would. but i had a smile don’t know if it was on my face but was in my core for sure.