Dec 22-23 Merry Christmas - Mistress Words

Your between my legs, your mouth enveloping my dirty whore of a cunt. The warmth of your skin against me envelopes me emotionally, the calm look in your eyes as you give your self up to my need's. 

Looking down on you in your eyes, witnessing my internal emotional fireworks. Your hands on my backside and on either side,  my large breasts rising and falling much faster than i would think from this simple act. My hands firmly clenching the hair on either side of your head. Enjoying the wonderfully heat of your mouth and breath. So intoxicating.

Moving forward, moving downward. Your tongue parting my lips and flicking my clit. The warmth of your mouth and your tongue on me makes it all so desperately hot that and the heat of the shower is making me light headed. You are glancing at me from down below at times but you seem to not even see me as your so excited by this act, trying to make you go even going deeper with your tongue, I am close my eyes. My hands has grip even hard and more forceful if that even possible. Feeling your hands pull at my as cheeks apart as you pull me more into you open working mouth, an then my body starts to shake as i start to cum and a flash of you drink my pee washes into my thoughts so much i cum to more times. your tongue is working so well it like  were looking for something more. Will you find it?

What if i just let it happen right now. My thinking is ”stop!, don't stop don't do this to him, no fuck it do it it turning you on more than you would ever realized it would”. My left hand searching for your right hand to hold as my right hand moves to the back of your head and grabs a different patch of your head of hair. I am terrified and thrilled as i start letting it flow into you open mouth. And this is so awfully hot, specially every-time you swallow you cause more suction to my already pulsating cunt 

i try my best to slowing it down as so give you it all and you don't spill any. As I start to cum again as i start running out of nectar to give you, then pulling you back, as there another small orgasm waiting. This moment I keep, lustful, hungry and eyes glazed. Lips pursed ready for their thrill. Scent of us perfuming the room.

God i so doing this more often!

Mistress to ch

Dec. 22-23 2018 - Humiliation

so let start were i last left off.. i had to drink a bottle full of the Mistress "Golden Nectar" in my Office and got caught doing so by my secretary Beth, i was truly humiliated by this as it was a very personal humiliating to do that i had no control in! as well as to finding out Beth had taken photo's and video of me doing so!

so today as i write this in my Office, Beth has the rest of the week off with pay! blackmailed by her with my wife's help!

so Saturday morning i was awoken by the mistress to come and join her in the shower! as soon as i walked in she ordered me to strip and get on the scale as it was time for my weekly weight in!

so lose a bit of weight! 257 lbs!  going down!! woo hoo! also 85 days now in chastity and no orgasm at all. god my balls ache at times an awful lot these days.

so then i climbed watch the Mistress wash her hair and soap up her front chest, smooth pussy! hmmm

then she turn around and told me to wash her back and ass! hmmm hard as a rock now as i did this. after i did this with her "pink" scrunchy, after Mistress is all soaped up i usually rub her body and pay attention to her ass and legs and ass crack to make sure she clean... but i don't do it in a sexual way or i would get in trouble.

also side note: The Meeting with a lover planned for Sunday was cancelled due to family commitment on our side!  :) Mistress stressed so mush trying to somehow make it work so she could get some much need "Big & Thick" real cock!

getting back to the shower..lol squirrel lol. so soaped her lower rear as i crouched down to do so.. purely for my self to get a awesome view of her ass as i can't see her pussy!

she looks over her shoulders down at me, your really enjoying yourself thee cucky! stay down there and i will turn around and give you a real treat for drinking my pee in front of poor Beth.. hope you enjoyed that unplanned surprise!

"yes Mistress, it was but was also the "most" humiliating thing i ever had to do for you!" i replied.

she said "well i understand, but it made me really hot to know you would lower yourself to do this for me" as i looked up at her i was think god i love the view of her pierced nipples and seeing her face look down as me between the cleavage with water covering her sexy flesh.

she spoke as looked up at her as she was rubbing her hands on her back side removing the soap i'm guessing "so for being such a great submissive cuckold, how about i give you a treat! would you like that?" which i replied so eagerly it made her chuckle "oh yes please i would love that Mistress!" 

 her next question was"when the last time i let you lick and eat what you worship so much?" i replied "not sure.. been quite sometime"

"very true, well come here bitch and lick and eat my juicy cunt now!" she ordered me.

as i leaned forward she grabbed my hair at the same time she lifted her right leg onto the edge on the tub. as i open my mouth to lick her clit and start eating her beautiful pussy i can taste how wet she is. as i pull to speak to her she gabs my head and says "no don't you dare talk.. do what i told you to do you small cock bitch!"

as i do what i'm told and enjoying this whole scene immensely.. she really being extra rough and pushing and moving my head to areas which she wants the attention to be. it was very erotic ans i sure i was leaking pre-cum like crazy!

Mistress started chuckling and spoke up "well i can tell this has you very excited as i can hear you clit cage bouncing off the bottom of the tub"

i could tell she was close to cumming by her breathing.. then i heard her moan and muffle her cry!

now funny most times when she cum's she pushes me away as she becomes overly sensitive this way!

but this time she just held me tight and spoke "god cucky that was so hot, stop using your tongue and open up and suck my whole cunt" to which i did exactly that... "and another moan came then she spoke "you dirty small cock cuck,, drink all my gift or else!"

i thought she was talking about her pussy juice from cumming.. nope she started fill my mouth with her golden nectar... i started swallowing as fast as i could as not to let any escape, what i notice while doing so.. it did not taste anywhere as bad as drink her's yesterday from the bottle. and i was able to so with no gagging!

when she was finished.. she let go of my head and looked down, and what do you say cuck?, which i replied "thank you very much Mistress!"

ch 

Dec. 21 2018 - Public Humiliation

note to all this may gross some people out! i will say sorry but as this my Diary and what happen's in my/out life. it is what it is.

so Mistress came by my place of work today and had some lunch with me an grabbed a bottle of water from the case i keep my office so i won't drink to much coffee or soft drinks!

when we were done she said "well i guess i should get going have somethings to do!", then as i got up she oh i guess i should use the washroom before i head out" and then went down the hall. heard her talking to my receptionist who know i'm her cuckold! as she served me coffee the Mistress dropped off at her desk to give me with sometimes the word's written in marker from the store "For the cuckold husband".

she gave me a kiss and hug and we said our good bye's, noticing the water bottle she had placed down before we hugged and kissed to say our goodbyes. i said "hey here water" not looking at it just grabbing it and picking up to hand to her.

She smiled gave me a deep kiss, pulled away and said "cucky that for you, i want it all gone in 15 min. max I made it fresh for you so don't you dare pour it out, do i need to ask Beth to come in an check?"

i looked at and realized it had a hint of yellow-ish to it!

'OMG' she filled it with her pee! i said "but..."

she cut me off by saying "NO but's unless you would like to lick mine for the next 2 weeks after movement cucky!"

i looked down defeated and said in a low tone "yes Mistress i promise it will be done as you ordered"

gave me a kiss on the cheek and grabbed my cock in it's tiny steel cock cage and squeezed my balls and turned and left, i heard her say "bye Beth  have a great weekend!"

10 min later Beth walked in as i was drinking my special drink!  "oh god you must really lover her, i did think you could get any lower, let me see you take a big chug of that.. or i tell your wife you would listen to me!"

i said "Beth come on this is embarrassing enough she making me do this.. please don't ask me!" Beth reached into her pocket of her slacks and pulled out her phone and started dialing.

"No i'll do it!"

i picked up the bottle and raised it to my mouth closed my eyes mainly not to see her eyes looking at me as i did it! and started chugging as much as i could with out gagging!

"click, click"  my flashed open. "Beth what are you doing!"

"saving this for a rainy day Mr. (cuckold).

i started crying.. and ding text came in looking down.. wife "wrote  hey just saw the little video Beth sent me and 2 pictures! good job!" for that i promised Beth would be given the work days off next week with pay"

sadly you know the rest so don't have to explain it! one of the most publicly humiliating thing my Mistress has done to me.. also sad hard as i can get in my micro cage and know i leaking like mad.

ch

Photo below is of the actual bottle she left me, and one i grabbed to drink as well!

Dec. 20 2018 Teased and Balls abused

last night we had nothing special planned, so Mistress decided she wanted to play a earlier as normally we play just before bed if kids are home.  I was taking a shower;  and when I was finished and went to Mistress bedroom. Mistress decided to  tied me to the bed, Spread Eagle, placed earphones in and a blindfold on.

Mistress then started to tease my balls as was still locked in my chastity cage, until I was getting very horny and as hard as I possible could in the cage would let me be and as I had on the micro cage with the urethra tube.. not much room. Mistress then started to pull on them . It didn’t hurt as much, that did last long as every time she pulled and twisted.. she was doing it harder. Mistress then sat on my chest and started to lightly in a more playful manner  tease my balls again.

she was treating to a very rare licking and sucking of my balls. Mistress then started every few seconds slap my balls. they weren’t  really hard smacks, but after a few the pain was increasing and started lasting longer and longer and the pain would build up and it really started to hurt. Between the smacks Mistress would tease and rub my balls until the next smack. After about ten minutes of slapping and teasing, I felt Mistress rubbing cream on my balls, and a short while after  an realized it wasn’t any cream, it was Deep Heat.

it really started to burn a lot. Mistress then moved off  my chest and paused the music and told me that I had to handle the pain until she came. Mistress then took a glass dildo and started to massage her clit. It didn’t take long until Mistress came and it seemed like she came quite hard. Honestly I really couldn’t focus much on what Mistress was doing, the pain was just too much. The burning was getting real intense.

after Mistress came, she took a wet cool cloth and wiped all the Deep Heat of my balls. It did take a while for the burning to stop. Mistress then rubbed some lotion on my balls, it really felt amazing, both soothing and it made me horny all over again. while my balls were calming down Mistress climbed up and sat on my face and made me lick her.. at first I realized it was her ass. and noticed as is it was not unbearable to do.. it was also not washed before playing.. this was defiantly a new for the Mistress.

then when she dad enough she moved so that I was now licking her pussy, it was soaked.. it was really erotic and even felt like there might have been a load of cum in her.. which my mind raced, as I was licking she ended up moving back and force more like I was being used to make her cum from my face. all of a sudden I knew she was cumming by the motion’s her body was making and the flood of juice coating me face and mouth.

After that Mistress calmed down she got off me and  untied me, and then we cuddle in bed watching Netflix on the TV, till the soft breathing of her telling me she had fallen asleep.

ch

Dec 18 2018 - a random question

how many of cuckolds out there who read this diary, have a (hot) wives, girlfriend or Femdom Mistress that almost demand that you suck the cocks of her Bulls/lovers, as she likes to see you do it and turns her on?

ch



on a side thought, i was think of doing cuckold outing of other's if they wanted.. who the are.. no real names will be posted.
where they are from and what the like or do.. a voice for all fellow cuckold's who wish to do so. let me know what you think!

Dec. 15-16 2018 All she wants for Christmas is big hard cock!

so found a bull for Mistress and we set a date for them with me in tow. there date for erotic fun is this upcoming weekend if all goes to plan.

Mistress is very excited and they've chatted and text a couples times on the weekend.

Mistress also 2 weeks ago put me on better eating plan to loose some weight.

i'm doing my best to eat healthier as well a get more exercise as well.

So my official weigh in Nov. 30  was 265.0.
                     my weigh in Dec.08 was 258.5                   so loss - 6.5

last weigh in this weekend Dec. 16 was 258.0                 so loss - .5

not as good as we all hoped but did eat out twice this week.. so for that my Mistress made me have my morning coffee with a big load of frozen cum in it!  and then teased me about it the whole time!

these photo's are not of my coffee cup as the cum. took a photo.. but cum sank right to the bottom so it really looks more like black coffee.

alos 75 days now locked in chastity as of Dec.17 2018 when i posted this.

ch

Dec. 10 2018 - Bull Searching

so for the past 2 weeks i been online lately, on one of the many Adult Dating sites looking for a "new" regular lover for my Mistress/Wife. for anyone who has done this.. it a lot of work!

so out of nowhere i get a chat invite, i except.. we chat for sometime. and looks promising!

will keep you posted!

ch

Diary Update Dec 04 2018

so many things to put in here.. and so many things taking up our everyday life to have time to put down for my reflection at a later date in my elderly life.

one new on for us was last Friday evening (November 30) Mrs/Mistress was out on a date in the Ottawa Market, while i was doing the fatherly thing for/with our 2 of 3 kids.

she had sent me a text before going to supper and told me she wanted me to insert the largest butt plug i could handle as it been sometime that i've had one in me! i did what i was asked also keep in mine as of today as i sit and write this i've been in chastity 62 days straight and no milking as of yet.

skip over the mundane cuckold angst while i do my chores like this in pink lace panties.

when Mrs/Mistress was finished her date (dinner), she texted me on her way! when she arrived we hugged each other as one of the children was still up (older). she pushed on my backside and said in a whisper "everything okay!". my reply "all is what you asked is in place".

later when we were getting ready for bed, she told me she wanted on the bed when she came in to her room.
                        a towel
                        big red (8"x 3" Dildo with suction cup)
                        Condom
                        Silicone Lube
                        clover clips
                        and her laptop

as she brushed her teeth i fetched the items she requested. all neatly placed on the foot of her bed.
i left the room passing her in the hall to go fetch a glass of water for my self as was thirsty.

when i got back into the room Mrs/Mistress was in bed topless and working on her laptop, looked like writing some email by the reflection in the mirror on the wall behind her bed.

she without looking up told me to place the clover clips on my nipples, then place a condom on "Big Red" when done to let her know!

did what  i was told.. clit straining in the cage. I old her "done Mistress"

"Good no turn around lets see what plug you have in! Oh so cute and fitting the one with the pink stone to match your panties!"

" so how long has it been in, and how are you doing?"  i replied "it been in for almost 4.5 hours and feels good Mistress!"

"okay so remove the plug and washed good and then put it away!

did the task that i was given.

when i walked in her room, i saw that her nipples were nicely aroused, as i walked by her she made a clearing her throat sound, i turn to look at her as she stated. "that door is not going to lock it self little guy!"

turned and locked the door, and the walked around the bed to my side to see the towel, silicone lube and Big Red on my side.

she the told me to "lube up my ass and then climb up on the bed and try to get "Big red's" head at least in tonight!"

well did that, but took sometime for me in doing but got the head in. and oh fuck did that ever feel good and made me even more excited. and i then slowly moved up and down. she glance at me and back to her screen and a sexy cute grin came across her face... which made even more turn on.

never realized how much of a turn on to be made to do something as well as being ignored while doing it like i was not worthy of the attention... very humiliating and exciting to me more than i ever would have thought.

"how much do you have in you!" she spoke still ignoring me directly. through my gasps of excited short breaths i told her "the head maybe a little more Mistress!"

"great to hear" she replied and continued her typing! my eye's when open would go from her beautiful breast/nipples to her beautiful face, thinking to myself "god how much i love her for who she is and how lucky i've had her in my life for so long as well".

after a few seconds/minutes which felt like forever thighs burning nipples slightly burning "Big Red" opening me up and the warmth of the excitement washing over me, Mistress reaches for the nipple chain when my eyes are closed and pull's down hard... but not as hard as she knows i could handle.

the warmth and excitement rushed through me so fast it was totally unreal as the moan and shortness of breath was the only thing i could hear in her room.

"make it slide in just a bit deeper you pathetic cock slut, see your whole body let's me know your such a whore for that "Big Red" filling up your man cunt!" all this was said as she was pulling the chain more.

"come on stroke that clit faster." she says. i did not even realize i was stroking the steel cage like i was jerking off. laughing she says "bet that would feel good to do if it was not locked up".

never before that i can recall my emotion's and mind went everywhere at once and into one space if that make any sense to anyone reading this.

this all end not much afterwards to due the emotions and feeling that came over me! i ended up becoming a blubbering crying idiot.

my thought are as clear as day still.
1. how did i end up like this since we started dating/married.
2. why does my wife (Mistress) deserve a pathetic man like myself.
3. and when did i become so less a man that she married.

that the end of this evening.
ch