Snowy night in the Shoppers Parking lot.

This post was really very hard for me to commit to hit that official "Post it" button.

Not 100% sure why but was definitely conflicted for quite some time. But as you can tell i finally did not sure if it was a good or bad thing to do but guess we'll deal with the fallout. 

This happened almost a month ago just so your aware of the time line.

Dear Diary,

     I met this guy from chatting  on a adult online source at Ottawa Area Shoppers Drug Mart driving distance to our area. I had pulled up close to his truck and sat there really contemplating if i should leave or get out of my tiny little car. Here i was in pink lace panties and locked in my micro chastity since January the 14th and my beautiful wife was often at a sunny resort with a friend in the Dominican Republic.

Before you write cheating hate messages, she knew exactly where i was as i can't make any sexual decisions on my own. Just not allowed in our home.

I finally worked up the courage to shut the car off and get out! I walked towards the truck and as i got closer the driver signal me to the passenger side a of his big black Dodge Ram Hemi. As i got closer and started to reach the passenger door handle he said and motion to the back door. 

As i open i looked to see if the child lock was off, so if i needed to get away i could. It was was in the unlocked position so that was a sigh of relief for me.

 I then climb into the back seat of his pick up truck which he turn and made some small talk which made me feel at ease. He said he was really surprised by how i looked as he had a vision of me more feminine for some reason, which surprised me and made me chuckle. I asked him why he thought this?

He said because you said you were locked in a chastity cage and pink panties. I said but i am. He asked me if i could show him before he climbs in the back. I responded by pushing my ass forward and undoing my belt and then pulling down my zipper. Lifting my ass i pulled my pant to show him. 

He smiled and then asked to see the cage as he couldn't really tell because of the little amount of light. As i pulled the side of the G string to show him the cage, he said "You must be tiny to fit in that tiny thing!"

I told him I was 6" before chastity and weight gain now I'm around 5.5" i believe. He laughed and asked me how i felt that i was going to be sucking his fat 5" cock which has cum since for a few days it must be quite humiliating to suck one so small on a more Dominant male. I replied nervous and excited as I'm a submissive basically. I've known this in my heart and mind for years.

He turn around and got out of the driver's seat and climbed into the back with me. While he closed the door told me to put that away as he had no care or desire for it locked or unlocked. 

He took his cock out and said he just wanted to cum with a wet mouth. His brutal honesty made hard instantly.  As i was excited and humiliated seeing his semi rigid uncut cock with his pants now around his ankles i got down on the floor and held his cock guess i bit longer than i realized as i heard him say, "Are you going to hold onto or actually do what your supposed to do?

I leaned in and as i moved towards his crotch i could smell the smallest hint of sweat but mostly a nice bodywash sent. As i wrapped my mouth around his organ and moved my tongue around it, i could feel him getting excited and firmness setting in.

Which then made me get straight down to sucking on his cock. It had been literally years since i sucked on a real cock and i was really enjoying the texture and act, but mostly i loved the taste of the pre cum that i was getting. It wasn't too long i heard him moan which made me feel proud of my accomplishment due to the little actual experience i have.

I felt him then grabbed my hair on either side of my head and just started slowly forcefully fucking my mouth and building a tempo. He kept at while i was gagging and choking somewhat as i was not used to this but it made me very excited for so many different reasons i probably could never probably explain to another.

He hardly let me up except for the shortest of a breath break and of course oxygen. After a bit of time he suddenly came as deep as he possibly could down my throat. He ley go of my head and told me to continue to lick and suck. 

I did my best licking and sucking on his cock with my minimum experience and told me to suck his balls. This actually something i have never done, but i have watched my beautiful wife do it with her lovers so did my best by memory to do what I've seen he do.

I guess while doing so my tongue swiped below his ball not intentionally but was just getting carried away. He moaned and said yes thats is go lower and rim me. 

I have never had any desire to rim any male or woman other than my wife on extremely rare occasions which i could count on one hand in our 32 years of marriage.

Having his one foot up on the back of the center console and the other on the bench seat he was on. I guess because i was still in a erotic state do to horny i went for it. Licking and slowly diving my tongue around his anus hole.

I was quite surprised that i wasn't grossed out and it seemed to taste clean. I was still a bit hesitant to push my tongue into this forbidden area. But he said "What the fuck do you think your doing get your submissive tongue into my Asshole NOW!"

I in my submissive state did what i was told, as i was pushing my tongue in and out not sure if i was doing anything right... but hoping.

I could feel his big balls move and at times they touch my forehead as open my eyes i could see him jacking off as i rimmed him in the parking lot lights rays, his breathing became heavier i finally heard him moan as it made me desire to push my tongue in as deep as i could.

He then came again and i felt it spray on my hair mostly and over my face and glasses which was really what i want in the first place when chatted online. By this time it was now about 1am. 

He reached over on the console to hand me some kleenex, which i declined and told him i was going home like this to bed. Called me one submissive dude, i asked if he could take a photo with my home so i could send to me wife. 

He said sure, as i passed him the phone after opening the camera app he took some shots and a check to make sure they were good and clear. 

I said thank you and got out of the truck and went to my car. As some snow fell i was brushing it off as a couple came out of the shoppers past mine to their car. Not 100% if the notice my messy face but still gave me a submissive perverted thrill and drove off towards our home. 

ch

Male Chastity Day - January 14 th. 2022

This happened on January the 14th. (aka "International Male Chastity Day"). It took me longer to post due to me being dyslexic and trying to capture as many errors i could fine. I'm sure there are still and sorry part of reason this written is to help me. As well as capture my thoughts, feelings and of course a glimpse of my/Our life.

My wife and I have dabble in chasity for quite some time and as well many different lengths of time being lock up.

This morning she called me back into the bedroom and in no certain words told me strip. She the proceeded to lock me up in chastity with a big smile on her face and it was our smallest one.

She then slowly removed her bathrobe and was given a beautiful sight of her in a sexy matching bra and panties and then told to watch as she laid back on our bed and started to play with herself first over her panties then inserting hr hand into the waist band.

I would like to tell uou that uy cock started to get as hard as it could in the cage but that a lie, it was already firm after being surprised by being locked in chastity and got tighter when she disrobed.

But i did twitch and sure think i was leaking as I heard myself let out a moan. She then abruptly stopped and told me to get the inflatable gage. After retrieving it I then handed it to her, which she pulled her crotch of the panties to the side and rubbed it over her slit and almost pushed it inside her till it was covered in her heavenly juices then told me too place it in my mouth.

As she leaned forward she started to squeeze the inflation bulb to fill my mouth cavity now the pressure was overwhelming the smell and taste of her made me feel like i was definitely at my hardest and i could feel precum sliding down my upper thigh.

She the leaned back and went back to playing with herself. It was truly a sight to behold as i couldn't actually see you fingers working of her womanhood but she must of least cum twice.

When she came down from her last orgasm she looked at my cage then said "hmm I realy could use some cock right now shame you are locked up"!

She then told me to go fetch the lube and hollow plug and strap-on.
Now i know if the hollow plugs being pulled out, she want to use the strap-on hard like no mercy hard.

When i returned with the items, she had her phone in hand and placed it down and got off the bed. She then told me to bend over and she lubed the plug and started inserting it. Now it not a full hollow plug it real called a tunnel plug made of tpe. Not as easy as just push and insert very bendable.

Once in she then proceeded to cimb into the spare part harness and once one lubed up the 8.5 thick life like dildo and placed pushed it into the gaping hole in the tunnel plug. Once the head was in she pushed slowly to get me comfortable and use to this as it had been sometime.

As i feel her grab my hips, i close my eyes and try my best to relax and prepare for the violation that seems to be coming my way.

"DING" a sound of a text coming in one one of our phones.

She pauses and hard to explain but you could almost feel her smile from reading it. Puts her phone down after she sends her response.

And then reaches next to her on the bed stand and grabs something. I find out in seconds as i heard the sound of the vibration from her bullet vibe. I then feel the dildo in me move weirdly as i figure out later she places it in her panties guess around her clit and the harness.

And then re grabs my hips and starts the violation. It felt a little uncomfortable as i felt my hole being gapped due to her cock. But in no time it was very enjoyable and i felt like it was something i have missed for sometime.

It took her no time before i heard her start her 1st orgasm and she did it like a champ. All the signs and action of how a man fucking a woman and cumming deep inside them. That final balls deep move.

As guess her orgasm started to subside she slowly pulled out, believing she had her fun and nowit over. But she stopped short of pulling fully out and then i heard the sound of more lube from the bottle.

She then restarted fucking me building speed, i was now getting actually aroused and felt i would be able to cum, which i have never been able ro do the few times we did pegging while i was in chastity.

But her motion, her breathing and feeling of perspiration droplets falling onto my back from her was intoxicating. I could hear her orgasm building again. I felt like i was getting close as well. The bedspread was becoming really wet and my face was getting bounced around that my whole face was covered in my drool.

Then her orgasm was peeking and hammered into me with so much force, almost felt like the cock grew as it was so deep. I was just about to cum i believe still as write this down hour later.

She then pulls out grabs a large glass penis butt plug on the dresser which i never noticed before. Slaps my ass and says "thanks bitch, i need to freshen up as my boyfriend on his way. Get dress and strip the bed and put fresh sheets on and make a pot of coffee and light a scented candle i like and get out of the house till after 5pm.

I as i stated i still have not cum yet.

Note: this was not a planned thing from my knowledge. Our sexual life has been almost none existent for quite some time, so hope this it a new Awakening for her/us.

Like i mentioned been pretty much PIV free since August 2019 and in and out of chastity, thank god more in than out. Due to so many different factors in our household!

wearing a butt plug at work right now for the first time.

I wrote this a bit on my Samsung notes, trying to remember to capture how i was feeling this morning while it was fresh in my head and Desires.

I’ve been a little  extra needy lately and wanted to push my kinkier side of my sexual submissive role. I’ve desired a love for anal play which comes in many forms, one being butt plugs and so we bought a set of 3 different sizes silicone ones. 

So i thought it would be kind of fun to put one in this morning, and then decided to wear it into the office this morning. So here I sit, butt plug in while I sit at my desk for looking at some supplies i need to order.

I absolutely feel so incredibly submissive and naughty or should i say nasty and of course very firm in my micro chastity cage.

It’s been a good thing I’m currently alone at my desk, because i have wiggling to feel the plug move around and go deeper into me. I already had to go to the washroom outside my office to wad a buck of tissues as i can feel the lube as it moves around.

I’ve seem to feel wet this morning like if i actually had a pussy, and I do know I’m going to have to sneak off to the bathroom to clean up clit leaking self and maybe pull hard on my balls to relieve some of this intense horniness I’m feeling.

I so wished i had the forethought to bring a dildo i would have snuck off later to try and give myself a anal orgasm, I can barely concentrate on what I’m actually supposed to be working on.

Meme of the week!

 Locktober and SPH, go hand in hand.

Meme of the week!

Sorry been busy lately due to finally back to working after being off for so long due to the Covid Pandemic. 

Will try to get back to normal routine soon.

Here one inspired because of October and in the Kink Community is called Locktober!

Part. 2 Cuckold Huimilation Saga.

Part 2 - Sinking fast due to cuck's Desires. 

The feeling at that moment and of the humiliation of her comment and the thought of licking up my wife’s freshly fucked cum filled pussy was overwhelming me like crazy and I would of agreed too anything as i was in suck a submissive headspace.

After more discussion on the matter, which taking my focus off of things an focus on what how she wanted to celebrate this, we she/we ended up coming up with some truly humiliating ideas for the ceremony.

MLB said before we’re to start with this little ceremony she wanted some kind of ironclad insurance that I would actually go through with the full ceremony. 

She also felt the need to remind me if I didn’t go threw with the ceremony, my creampies would come to an end for the rest of my life. 

It was Wednesday evening and MLB wrote up a list of items that I was to get as well as help provide the humiliating and self incriminating evidence she wanted as too keep me in line forever.

She gave me the list, I proceeded to head out to the different stores to purchase the items on the list.  As I was leaving MLB informs me she’s had been flirting with a lot of men lately and a quite a few of them have been asking for dates for some time, so this Saturday would work out for celebrating our little ceremony. 

MLB stood 5 foot 10 inches tall at made for a beautiful woman so I really wasn’t surprised at how fast she could find a man ready to fulfill her needs and fresh cum.

The thought of those her legs wrapping around another man and her using those legs to pull him deeper into her, always drove me crazy so did my best about buying a real life looking large dildo, some guy on guy magazines, as well as DVD.

When I finally came home from purchasing materials i was asked to for the photo shoot, I found that MLB had laid out a outfit for the photos as well.

My wife then demanded me to get into my the outfit and when I was dressed to her liking, she decided to add and then do me up right with full makeup.

I had quickly put on the items that were laid out for me, which were panties, bra and baby doll gown over my head and now sat in the bathroom where my wife had set up lot of her makeup.

MLB, quickly finished quite quickly my makeup and then left towards livingroom and told me to bring both our cellphones as she wanted to use one for video and the other as a camera.

Once i had enter the room my wife told me to give her both fully charged cellphones and then told me to unwrap the dildo and to pose with it in all sorts of poses and I was to be very creative.

I took this 9 inch life like cock in my hands and started to play with it as my wife started taking shots for different angles.

Finally, MLB said stop being such a fucking fool and pussy and start sucking on that cock like it was my favorite ice cream cone and as I started to get more i to it i found myself enthusiastically sucking the dildo, which made her take many more shots.  

MLB then told me for a good finsl finish to the shoot, she would video me looking through the guy on guy magazines with the porn DVD i purchased also playing on the big TV screen in front of me. 

I was told to start masturbating as i looked at the magazines and TV, and to talk about the men and their cocks in the magazine and on the TV in front on me.  

Finally, MLB told me I needed to really get more into it and give her a really disgusting video she could use against me, of me sucking the life-like dildo. 

I moved off the couch and was now kneeling in front of the coffee table looking directly at the TV, holding the dildo base to the table with both hands i proceeded to suck on it and slid my mouth up and down on the shaft all the time not taking my eyes off the sex scene playing on the TV!

My wife the commented saying "Now that’s better" as I show how i was really getting into the scene on our TV and that’s when wife said "Now do me proud and shove that dildo up your ass with you yelling out how much you really want that cock in my ass to be real!". 

And I did exactly as she asked as i watched the two guys fucking on our TV as i was also getting so hot and aroused as started to sliding the dildo in and out of my boi pussy between my cheeks. 

Finally after some work it was going fight to the base that i was holding onto, looking at these two guys fucking on TV, and I start to speak out in loud voice how much I really wanted a live cock in my ass and with that I exploded across the porn magazine below me with a picture of a large beautiful uncut cock. 

The wife moves in for a close-up of my heavily made up face which was a orgasm face as I was cumming and then she aims down to the cum sprayed male picture below me on the floor.

She then decides to gives me my final humilation instructions, I’m told to lick my cum off of the male dude cock in the magazine and to stat how much I really love the taste of cum.

As my orgasm is done, and my desire is way less intense I reluctantly bend down and moan about how much I love the taste of cum as I lick up every drop of my cum. 

MLB closes in with the her cellphone video and said; "Good Boy, that’s a wrap since you’ve given me all the proof that I will need to keep you in line for the real denied cuckold ceremony that will happen this Saturday."

Part 3 to follow. 

Meme of the Week!

My conundrum of the P.A. piercing & Chastity Cages!

So as you cab tell from some of my Diary writing that i’m in a D/s relationship not 100% of the time as we have a vanilla life and one with kids and other family members.

So i’m not submissive around the clock physically, but mentally i would say 75-80% of the time i am, either way my Femdom wife owns my cock always.

 The Mrs. bought and gave me my first chastity cage for Christmas one year a Chrome CB6000 from a store in Montreal called "Priape". Loved it and used it often, actually wore the chrome off the inside of it, partially from use and my P.A. piercing at the time i would say i was wearing a 12 gage.

Now that is funny, sounds way more impressive than it actually is! LoL.

So at this time i was a proud man with length of 6" with a semi thick girth. But that changed for many reasons not a scientist or doctor.. so not going to make assumptions, just tell you or anyone who might read this, if any.

We’ve purchased several male chastity devices since for a number of reasons, i should really state i purchased these. Even if my Mrs. was aware i felt it was my duty to.

I can tell you i've never tried or found my cock easily getting out of them, meaning escaping from their confines, but i never wanted to either. Our next one was a cheap Chinese one, supposedly stainless steel version but not.. just chromed.

 It was a CB6000 version, the only thing i can tell you about it that was good, price and found out i much more preferred the weight of the metal ones.

The next one was e-stim version of the CB6000 as well. But the ring which is one with clicking lock.. which i would highly recommend you to stay the fuck away from these.. it gave me more nicks and pinches than any of the other's...still to this date.

 The e-stim was fun, very fun specially when learning. Mrs gave me quite a few high voltage jolts by accident.. lol.

Then later i found my actual favorite chastity cage. This would be years later. It was a micro chastity cage with a urethra tube that removable.

 What i loved and still love about to this day is weight, the choice of the urethral play and the diminished look of my penis. Which then gave me a craving for SPH and further humiliation as well as pushing me mentally further down into a submissive role.

As my ring size had been large by this time i could still wear it with this cage, but had to get the ring taken off if i wanted the urethra tube in.

The tube when purchased was around 3 to 4 inches in length. I found it to short for me personally for longer wear. With this tube in i would last may 3 to 4 hours max.

Went to Home Depot and bought a small amount of food grade silicone tubing, usually used for water supply. I cut a 8" peice roughly heated the edges to make sure round smooth... do not burn it, just heating it up.

Now i can wear it for days. But keep in mind a couple of things. One hygiene is extremely important in the first place, but with urethra play extra care always.

Used plenty of safe hygienic lube always. Remove the tube a minimum of once a day and clean well with soap and hot water. I've worn mind up to 3 weeks with no issues, but a cleaning regiment was being done.

No we've just recently up the gage to the 2nd last size we wish, well to date anyways, so my micro chastity cage won't work with this one at all. So had to do more research and found one that would work. But it's not a micro cage.. and had just found a new ultimate micro cage i wanted... might still get later.

 A note to the many who ask why chastity play or a P.A. piercing.

 So for many male (and Female) subs and their Domme's and/or Dom's, the symbolism of a male(in my case) chastity device is what matters most, not its inescapability but that is the preferred preference to many of us . And as with other forms of sex play and most aspects of healthy relationships, the honour system is what truly makes it work.

As in any negotiated relationship or contract, you can find ways to cheat. But really why cheat? They’re easy to keep on if you’re genuinely interested in keeping your commitment as well as submitting.

Fun fact: Locking a guy’s cock in an inescapable device doesn’t prevent him from coming if he truly wants to, he would just have to get very creative about it. But keep this in mind you would be only cheating on yourself and lying to yourself. A Domme(in my case) will know by your mood, attention to her or lack of it, and the amount of ejaculate you produce. 

This is the one i wanted next, called a few names, to Ultimate Micro, Eunuch or Castrate Cage.

Another note: longer locked in and stimulated by my wife/Domme i often release ejaculate when going to the washroom, never knowing till i stand up to wipe my cage area and fush.

I’ve yet to discover after taking to many fellow submissives in chastity in as many kinds of device's that if their mindset wants to achieve a stolen orgasm they can achieve this orgasm if they're holding a powerful wand massager against it.

So if your Dominant is locking up your cock to prevent you from coming, she’ll also need to lock up her vibrators or remove them so you won't have access to them.

Lots of men are shy or lie to themselves about being a true submissive in my opinion, so they’ll say all kinds of things like.

I just wanted to make sure you all understood that chastity is a long-term gamefor many, and you cant think off the bat you can do a week or more, it takes time to grow into the longer term.

For most of us in chastity devices, it’s a 24/7 affair—literally around the clock. But if you can't or not capable of remaining in a submissive headspace for more than a few hours, you’ll need to talk to your partner, before the padlock clicks shut, just how long she intends to keep your cock locked up.

Being locked also has another side effect that you wouldn’t perhaps think about or even anticipate, Whenever you become aroused, you will feel your cock on the cage. It can be anything from a gentle reminder to a vice-like grip, depending on your arousal levels.

And whenever this happens, your mind automatically will always turn to your key holder, even if they’re not around.

These are my opinion and thoughts.

ch

Feb 11 2019 This past Saturday at home

so the Mistress was in a fun mood Saturday morning. we kissed passionately a little in the morning in bed but we ended up interrupted before anything serious could break out which made me really overthinking what she had plan as i have been locked in chastity for quite some time.

we got up and went about our day she told me my chores for the day were doing all the dishes and to vacuum the whole house as she was going out with one of our kids to do some running around the city.

before she left she i had already started the dishes, she came up behind me and kissed my on the back of my neck and then ran her had down inside my sweatpants and played with my male  pussy as she calls it in the kitchen, kissing the back of my neck  on either side and eventually slipping some fingers in my male pussy which slid in quite easy as i believe she has pre-lubed them. and i was correct. before she finally pulled away and leaving me there feeling so turn on but cheap she had 3 of her fingers pushing in and out.

she loves fingering me from behind as she stated that i never know or see it coming so she know it a real surprise for me! 

she noticed how horny i was becoming and suddenly cut me off cut me off and pulled her fingers away. she walked away, and felt empty and so lonely, to return and then leaned my back to kiss my neck and move her left hand to the front of my chest and slid her hand down my stomach and into front of my sweats and grab my micro Chasity cage encased clit.

then in a soft spoken way but also a very dominating role and said "if i wanted any release this Feb 14th i would have to work for it, can't believe how small your clit really is to fit in this micro cage! it really pathetic."

she moved her hand in a jacking me off motion that i knew was a little motion to say the least as she spoke and her right hand slid down into the back of my sweat pants "Bitch bend over the sink like your looking out the widow to see something NOW!"

as readily did what i was told i she continued the stroking of my caged clit as i felt something being pushed into my male pussy when fully inserted her had was removed from back there as she then placed her hand on my back lightly tapping it to say okay you can straiten up!

as I love being dominated by her i know i was leaking pre-cum like crazy!

she told me the whole house better be fully vacuumed and floor swept before she came back


when she had returned alone almost 2.5 hrs later, she said "for your hard work i will give you a tiny reward right now!" she told me to lower my sweatpants and told me to "jack off" and showed me her beautiful pierced breasts.

she asked as watched he breast "do need to cum" and she just smiled knowing i did, nut also knowing i was holding out till no earlier than Feb14th..

i knew she was teasing me and i loved it as well as her for taking the time out to do this to me.

and then she yelled at me " bitch what the fuck are you doing!!! only real men are allowed to jerk off to me!. so stop it now" as she did she removed her top and bra completely.

she then 1/5 hour later took off her shorts and panties with out me knowing when she had done it and told me to eat her out and give her an orgasm as she sat in her leather IKEA chair and knitted with he ass on the edge and legs spread apart.

i knelt down and dove in dove in like it was my last meal but slowly.. not greedy like and i loved it. i even love her pussy when it is musky as i ate her i began to taste a familiar flavor that i have not tasted in some time and was trying to figure out what it was. this whole time she was knitting away like it was a normal eventful day.

after sometime she had put her knitting down at sometime and started moaning quietly after a while she really did ended up having a very nice orgasm i was told and i was left hard and wanting again with a puddle of pre-cum on the carpet which i ended up having to clean a scrub.

she gave me some more work to do as she went back to knitting. i had finished the work that was asked of me and a bi more that was not asked but needed to get done, as i told her i was pretty much done she asked my top bring all the laundry baskets down to the laundry room and then sort them out and we would take shower together.

when i got to the bathroom she was already in the shower and told me in a very authoritative voice to "get undress and remove the plug and climb in!" when i did what was asked of me i climbed in to see her in the shower in a wet white t-shirt and a strap-on.. she gave me a hug and a kiss and then pushed me back and said "get down there and make me hard cucky!"

i sucked on her cock for all i was worth.. not really good at deep-throating as of yet but i try.. more gagging than anything. she grabbed either side of head and started to face fuck me and moan. she got very vocal.. "oh that so good", oh slow down of i going to cum in your mouth and i don't want to" etc.

she then pushed my head away making me almost slip and fall in the tub which might have taken her down as well. but managed somehow not too. get up bitch an turn around.. as i did that she pulled my in close her cock in between my thighs below my ass cheeks. and her hand roaming on may micro cage. laughing saying "such a tiny cock.. it really id just a thick clit!"

and then moving her hand to my chest pulling me in to her i can feel her nipple ring in my back and the flesh mounds of her breasts. and then she had my nipples in each hand a started pulling at them away from my body as well as twisting them and digging her finger nails into them which all made me moan like crazy and hornier. she whispered " you like that don't you.. really are such a horny cunt"  i just replied with a moan and shaking of my head i was told.

then she pushed my upper torso away from her and i felt the head of her cock being pushed in with almost no issue due to having our largest plug in and plenty of lube still back there. she push and pulled her cock into my man pussy.. until i felt her skin touching my ass cheeks.. can't tell you how erotic a feeling this is to me.. beyond words

when she felt like i was opened and there was no resistance for her and she felt i was comfortable.. she started build up more strokes building speed.. at one point i really thing i blanked out due to the pleasure.. but highly doubt that as i did not fall. but she was really drilling me hard and fast till she actually came and hard. when done.. she kiss me on my neck and side of my face as she slowly turn me toward her as i could feel the strap on being pulled out and move me to face her and kissed my hard on the mouth/

she then pushed me down.. and told me to "clean my cock with your mouth, you cheap slut"

i did.. and did not enjoy the taste, as much as i found it very erotic and thrilling.. but wish it never happens again.. and boy did i brush my teeth and gargle more than i ever have in my life.. or thats how i felt anyways.

ch

Jan, 21 2019 - Last night

so the past few night, Mistress has been cuddling me nude. now part of her house rules is i not allowed to climb into her bed clothed unless ill or other reason she see fit!

well last night when we were watching Netflix and cuddling she always wants me to rub her back or arms or butt, legs. and i truly love do it, even after doing it sometimes my arms and hands start hurting, but push through as i think: well it my status in this house to do it and shut up!

after almost 40 min. she moves and turn's so i ask "to hot, or body sticking together." her reply was "yes.. and my back side getting lubed up from a tiny object!" beyond the fact i new i was hard in my micro chastity cage was unaware i was leaking like hell. been locked up so long with out any release for over 111 days.

after more massaging of her left thigh, she grabbed my hand and moved it between my goddess! and then pushed my fingers into her womanly folds and started moving them up and down, i could feel her clit aroused in my fingers!

she was moist, but not overly wet, so she reach over to my locked cock and started moving it around and laughing, "oh you poor thing all locked up and as this moment it by your choice... were you might have had a chance to feel my inner folds on you.. mind you not much of it as your so fucking small anyways!"

with that she return her hand to her folds and pushed away my had as she did, played with herself and then grabbed my hand and returned it to her womanhood! god she was slick, as i continued my up and down motion and rubbing different ways, her hips started pushing up as the more she got turned on.

i lowered my face and was able to get my nose under the cover, Mistress asked " are you cold?" now she asking as Ottawa has been going through a deep freeze for the past 3 days! I replied "no not at al, i just wish to smell your lovely sent!" which made her smile.

then she turned and leaned her head towards me her mouth so close to my ear, and said "you know your making me feel so good right now, i want you to make me hard. and in case you didn't know i thinking of his big cock that will be stretching that tight cunt your playing with so much that i won't ever feel you again!"

then she reached down half way and grabbed my balls that are the only thing exposed, and pulled and twisted quite hard, that my eyes closed and did my all to keep focus on the task. and her breathing started to get heavier and deeper, then let go and started punching the stainless steel cage also quite hard, it hurt but found myself wanting to warn her not to hurt her had doing this.

it that not weird she hitting my really hard and i worried she going to get hurt.. i really fucked up!

then she came and yelled in my ear.. "fuck i can't wait till he explodes into me, so deep in my cervix! "

then when she calmed down removed my had with a good grip. and then turn over and spooned with me till her eyes closed and her breathing got slow and deep.

when i woke up this morning.. she was on the other side of me, and i was on my back and felt wetness on my butt, as i reach to feel what it was, i found out the cause was i guess i had some wet dream i don't remember but leaked lot of fluid.

ch

Dear Diary Jan.14 Part 2

so left off last getting a mouth of the Mistress squirting/cum as she watched porn on the TV down in our family room.

she made me lick her with the flat of my tongue only, then lift a leg and put her foot on my shoulder and push it straight out so i ended up lying on my back. then she got up and climbed over me and wrapped her sexy body around me.

she then started kissing me and nibbling on my neck and biting as she ground her woman hood on my chastity cage. she did that until she came again! once she was finished with me.. she took of her rode and dropped on me stating " to hot for that.. bring it up with you and turn off the TV and come to bed"

all this was being said as she turn a walked away and i got a great view of her ass in the thong as she unhooked her bra and let it fall off her shoulder and was dropped on the floor as she turn the corner and i watched her in the mirror on the wall as i saw her climb the stairs.

i just laid there stunned at what all happen as my clit just throbbed in it confines of it cage.

ch

Jan. 14 2019 - International Chastity Day

so today is international chastity day, it the day when not forced to be in it i freely asked to be locked up until no earlier than Feb.14 the day of love or the commercial day of selling love to the world.. i do it to show my true love.

have been doing it since my second year in the cuckold life style, and i believe Mistress remembered this and it why she let me have a breath yesterday.

so i if anyone read's this diary, you would know she let me have the day out of chastity at 5 pm she told me to go back in and call her so she could lock me up!

ch

Jan. 13 2019 - dear diary

so got a unexpected surprise this morning, every weekend i get to take off my chastity under supervision of course to shave that area as Mistress demands it to be smooth other than a square patch of hair on the top of my clit! as she says it make me look foolish and should humiliate me when i get caught walking in a public place meaning shower at the gym or at one of the local swimming pool's.

but this morning when she unlocked it for my shower and shave, she asked "do i need to stand over you to make sure you don't take any liberties that you are not allowed to do freely?"

I said "no Mistress, i can promise to do what i would do if you were right here in the bathroom".

she replied "good girl, for that you can keep it off till i demand it or bed which ever is first"

omg i thought to myself, i can't remember when i was last un-cage for a full day. she did walk in a few times to peek as well as tease me, and boy so far today she been teasing and grabbing it through my sweat pant and jean all day so far. not sure how we have not been caught with all the kids around.

ch

Jan 12 2019 Dear Diary "Update"

So the household is getting better after being hit hard with the Flu over the holiday season. as of Friday the 12th i down to 251.0 lbs.. so not a big loss but the following weekend was down to o 140.5 due to almost no eating because of the Flu... so hot healthy way at all!

As of Jan. 11 2019  i have been locked in chastity and denied any type of release for 100 days! We use a app called ChastiKey, not bad.. not perfect either! Below are to screen shot of our cell app one is just the opening screen of the app. the other show's the time when we took a screen shot of my time as a submissive cuckold for my lovely Mistress/Wife. we never talk about me get out of Chastity or release as it not my place to so... and if i did there might consequences for me.

And the time as of Jan 11 2019 (below).

This Morning Jan 12. 2019 i woken by my Mistress/Wife and told to get up and follow her.  i sleep eyed and wondering what was going on, as i had not slept well last evening i was really in fog. as i followed her out of /her/our bedroom down the hall as it was still quite dark as i stepped into the main bathroom and she closed the door and grabbed me hard by the hair and pulled my head back to say "Get undress now cuck and get into the tub!"

i was wide awake now and  the back of my head hurt from how hard she pulled my hair, swear she might even taken some with her when she released her grip. as i got undress and started liming into the tub.. with only the bathroom night light on to see.

as i was standing there in the tub with my face toward the back wall i started to turn as the main light turn on to see my beautiful wife/Mistress stand by the switch nude! as i stare at her beauty she say to me "lie down in the tub on your back cucky!"  i do what i'm told and as still in some what a fog i not sure why or what on her mind.

as i lie there she moves toward me and says "keep you eyes closed" i did as i heard her move into the tub... and the felt and smelled the urine that was being and it seemed to go on for sometime as my chastity cage to my head got covered with Mistress fresh golden nectar.. even got some into my mouth and it was very strong tasting.

as she finished she said "move up and lick me clean you dirty cuck". i did.. as much as it was erotic it was very strong and don't think i cleaned her anymore than before i started. she moved off the edge of the tub and wiped her self with tissue, as i started to move as well she stated " nope lie back down there until i say you can get out". she got dress in her p.j's and turn to walk out turning the light of and closing the door!

i could here her walk back to her bedroom and climb into bed. it felt like i was in there for some time, and  i know as i shivered in the tub i could hear her deep breathing after some time i heard her phone alarm go off and then heard her get out of bed and come down the hall.

as she open the door and turn the light on which blinded me some what and she said "get up on your knees" as she removed her p.j's again. she came over to the tub grabbed my head of hair again and said "cuck open up wide and do not spill a drop as i will take that as a disrespect in our relationship!"

(not our photo!)

she pulled my mouth on to her beautiful woman hood that i rarely get access to anymore other than this now. and i felt the flow into my mouth again and swallow i did and the taste was far less strong this time let alone the flow.. i was able to complete the task with mot a drop spilled in two whole gulps. i was so proud of my self this time.. and funny thing i noticed i was sad that there was not more for me to swallow, oh god she starting to make me crave her golden nectar now!

she then said "use the only thing your good at that tongue.. get me off so i can get back to bed as it 3:40 in the morning bitch!" as any good submissive i did that and was in heaven as i can't remember when last she let mt orally please her. and i some how got her to have to orgasm's.. then she pushed me away.. turned the shower on and said "stay down there till i wash up".

as she washed and finished up she climb out of the shower and started drying up and getting dressed, i did dare move. she peeked in and told me i had "10 min. to wash and brush my teeth and clean my tongue, get dried and climb back into bed.. if i didn't make it i would be sleeping next to her with "big Red fully inserted into my ass for the rest of the night!

i rushed as "Big Red" in 8" tall and 3" girth.. and that would be uncomfortable!

made it just under and Mistress was sleeping as i got settled in to bed her phone alarm went off.. she turn it off and smiled at me and told me to spoon with her! when i did. she said hey take those bottom's off those are for real men or when you walking around the house when the kids are up!

i removed them and moved in to spoon with her, she grabbed my hand and placed under her top so that my palm was holding her breast and felling her hard pierced nipple as well!

what a way to start the weekend!  :)

ch


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Jan. 7 2019 - just a simple update

Not mush to tell.. the flu hit our home hard.. and were still recovering for it at the moment.

still locked in chastity so as of today that 96 days and also no release during that whole time.

every so often when i go pee.. there is a cum in the toilet as well, but no gratification or release.

that all.. sorry not mush to tell!

ch

Dec. 22-23 2018 - Humiliation

so let start were i last left off.. i had to drink a bottle full of the Mistress "Golden Nectar" in my Office and got caught doing so by my secretary Beth, i was truly humiliated by this as it was a very personal humiliating to do that i had no control in! as well as to finding out Beth had taken photo's and video of me doing so!

so today as i write this in my Office, Beth has the rest of the week off with pay! blackmailed by her with my wife's help!

so Saturday morning i was awoken by the mistress to come and join her in the shower! as soon as i walked in she ordered me to strip and get on the scale as it was time for my weekly weight in!

so lose a bit of weight! 257 lbs!  going down!! woo hoo! also 85 days now in chastity and no orgasm at all. god my balls ache at times an awful lot these days.

so then i climbed watch the Mistress wash her hair and soap up her front chest, smooth pussy! hmmm

then she turn around and told me to wash her back and ass! hmmm hard as a rock now as i did this. after i did this with her "pink" scrunchy, after Mistress is all soaped up i usually rub her body and pay attention to her ass and legs and ass crack to make sure she clean... but i don't do it in a sexual way or i would get in trouble.

also side note: The Meeting with a lover planned for Sunday was cancelled due to family commitment on our side!  :) Mistress stressed so mush trying to somehow make it work so she could get some much need "Big & Thick" real cock!

getting back to the shower..lol squirrel lol. so soaped her lower rear as i crouched down to do so.. purely for my self to get a awesome view of her ass as i can't see her pussy!

she looks over her shoulders down at me, your really enjoying yourself thee cucky! stay down there and i will turn around and give you a real treat for drinking my pee in front of poor Beth.. hope you enjoyed that unplanned surprise!

"yes Mistress, it was but was also the "most" humiliating thing i ever had to do for you!" i replied.

she said "well i understand, but it made me really hot to know you would lower yourself to do this for me" as i looked up at her i was think god i love the view of her pierced nipples and seeing her face look down as me between the cleavage with water covering her sexy flesh.

she spoke as looked up at her as she was rubbing her hands on her back side removing the soap i'm guessing "so for being such a great submissive cuckold, how about i give you a treat! would you like that?" which i replied so eagerly it made her chuckle "oh yes please i would love that Mistress!" 

 her next question was"when the last time i let you lick and eat what you worship so much?" i replied "not sure.. been quite sometime"

"very true, well come here bitch and lick and eat my juicy cunt now!" she ordered me.

as i leaned forward she grabbed my hair at the same time she lifted her right leg onto the edge on the tub. as i open my mouth to lick her clit and start eating her beautiful pussy i can taste how wet she is. as i pull to speak to her she gabs my head and says "no don't you dare talk.. do what i told you to do you small cock bitch!"

as i do what i'm told and enjoying this whole scene immensely.. she really being extra rough and pushing and moving my head to areas which she wants the attention to be. it was very erotic ans i sure i was leaking pre-cum like crazy!

Mistress started chuckling and spoke up "well i can tell this has you very excited as i can hear you clit cage bouncing off the bottom of the tub"

i could tell she was close to cumming by her breathing.. then i heard her moan and muffle her cry!

now funny most times when she cum's she pushes me away as she becomes overly sensitive this way!

but this time she just held me tight and spoke "god cucky that was so hot, stop using your tongue and open up and suck my whole cunt" to which i did exactly that... "and another moan came then she spoke "you dirty small cock cuck,, drink all my gift or else!"

i thought she was talking about her pussy juice from cumming.. nope she started fill my mouth with her golden nectar... i started swallowing as fast as i could as not to let any escape, what i notice while doing so.. it did not taste anywhere as bad as drink her's yesterday from the bottle. and i was able to so with no gagging!

when she was finished.. she let go of my head and looked down, and what do you say cuck?, which i replied "thank you very much Mistress!"

ch 

Dec. 21 2018 - Public Humiliation

note to all this may gross some people out! i will say sorry but as this my Diary and what happen's in my/out life. it is what it is.

so Mistress came by my place of work today and had some lunch with me an grabbed a bottle of water from the case i keep my office so i won't drink to much coffee or soft drinks!

when we were done she said "well i guess i should get going have somethings to do!", then as i got up she oh i guess i should use the washroom before i head out" and then went down the hall. heard her talking to my receptionist who know i'm her cuckold! as she served me coffee the Mistress dropped off at her desk to give me with sometimes the word's written in marker from the store "For the cuckold husband".

she gave me a kiss and hug and we said our good bye's, noticing the water bottle she had placed down before we hugged and kissed to say our goodbyes. i said "hey here water" not looking at it just grabbing it and picking up to hand to her.

She smiled gave me a deep kiss, pulled away and said "cucky that for you, i want it all gone in 15 min. max I made it fresh for you so don't you dare pour it out, do i need to ask Beth to come in an check?"

i looked at and realized it had a hint of yellow-ish to it!

'OMG' she filled it with her pee! i said "but..."

she cut me off by saying "NO but's unless you would like to lick mine for the next 2 weeks after movement cucky!"

i looked down defeated and said in a low tone "yes Mistress i promise it will be done as you ordered"

gave me a kiss on the cheek and grabbed my cock in it's tiny steel cock cage and squeezed my balls and turned and left, i heard her say "bye Beth  have a great weekend!"

10 min later Beth walked in as i was drinking my special drink!  "oh god you must really lover her, i did think you could get any lower, let me see you take a big chug of that.. or i tell your wife you would listen to me!"

i said "Beth come on this is embarrassing enough she making me do this.. please don't ask me!" Beth reached into her pocket of her slacks and pulled out her phone and started dialing.

"No i'll do it!"

i picked up the bottle and raised it to my mouth closed my eyes mainly not to see her eyes looking at me as i did it! and started chugging as much as i could with out gagging!

"click, click"  my flashed open. "Beth what are you doing!"

"saving this for a rainy day Mr. (cuckold).

i started crying.. and ding text came in looking down.. wife "wrote  hey just saw the little video Beth sent me and 2 pictures! good job!" for that i promised Beth would be given the work days off next week with pay"

sadly you know the rest so don't have to explain it! one of the most publicly humiliating thing my Mistress has done to me.. also sad hard as i can get in my micro cage and know i leaking like mad.

ch

Photo below is of the actual bottle she left me, and one i grabbed to drink as well!

Dec. 20 2018 Teased and Balls abused

last night we had nothing special planned, so Mistress decided she wanted to play a earlier as normally we play just before bed if kids are home.  I was taking a shower;  and when I was finished and went to Mistress bedroom. Mistress decided to  tied me to the bed, Spread Eagle, placed earphones in and a blindfold on.

Mistress then started to tease my balls as was still locked in my chastity cage, until I was getting very horny and as hard as I possible could in the cage would let me be and as I had on the micro cage with the urethra tube.. not much room. Mistress then started to pull on them . It didn’t hurt as much, that did last long as every time she pulled and twisted.. she was doing it harder. Mistress then sat on my chest and started to lightly in a more playful manner  tease my balls again.

she was treating to a very rare licking and sucking of my balls. Mistress then started every few seconds slap my balls. they weren’t  really hard smacks, but after a few the pain was increasing and started lasting longer and longer and the pain would build up and it really started to hurt. Between the smacks Mistress would tease and rub my balls until the next smack. After about ten minutes of slapping and teasing, I felt Mistress rubbing cream on my balls, and a short while after  an realized it wasn’t any cream, it was Deep Heat.

it really started to burn a lot. Mistress then moved off  my chest and paused the music and told me that I had to handle the pain until she came. Mistress then took a glass dildo and started to massage her clit. It didn’t take long until Mistress came and it seemed like she came quite hard. Honestly I really couldn’t focus much on what Mistress was doing, the pain was just too much. The burning was getting real intense.

after Mistress came, she took a wet cool cloth and wiped all the Deep Heat of my balls. It did take a while for the burning to stop. Mistress then rubbed some lotion on my balls, it really felt amazing, both soothing and it made me horny all over again. while my balls were calming down Mistress climbed up and sat on my face and made me lick her.. at first I realized it was her ass. and noticed as is it was not unbearable to do.. it was also not washed before playing.. this was defiantly a new for the Mistress.

then when she dad enough she moved so that I was now licking her pussy, it was soaked.. it was really erotic and even felt like there might have been a load of cum in her.. which my mind raced, as I was licking she ended up moving back and force more like I was being used to make her cum from my face. all of a sudden I knew she was cumming by the motion’s her body was making and the flood of juice coating me face and mouth.

After that Mistress calmed down she got off me and  untied me, and then we cuddle in bed watching Netflix on the TV, till the soft breathing of her telling me she had fallen asleep.

ch

Dec. 15-16 2018 All she wants for Christmas is big hard cock!

so found a bull for Mistress and we set a date for them with me in tow. there date for erotic fun is this upcoming weekend if all goes to plan.

Mistress is very excited and they've chatted and text a couples times on the weekend.

Mistress also 2 weeks ago put me on better eating plan to loose some weight.

i'm doing my best to eat healthier as well a get more exercise as well.

So my official weigh in Nov. 30  was 265.0.
                     my weigh in Dec.08 was 258.5                   so loss - 6.5

last weigh in this weekend Dec. 16 was 258.0                 so loss - .5

not as good as we all hoped but did eat out twice this week.. so for that my Mistress made me have my morning coffee with a big load of frozen cum in it!  and then teased me about it the whole time!

these photo's are not of my coffee cup as the cum. took a photo.. but cum sank right to the bottom so it really looks more like black coffee.

alos 75 days now locked in chastity as of Dec.17 2018 when i posted this.

ch

Diary Update Dec 04 2018

so many things to put in here.. and so many things taking up our everyday life to have time to put down for my reflection at a later date in my elderly life.

one new on for us was last Friday evening (November 30) Mrs/Mistress was out on a date in the Ottawa Market, while i was doing the fatherly thing for/with our 2 of 3 kids.

she had sent me a text before going to supper and told me she wanted me to insert the largest butt plug i could handle as it been sometime that i've had one in me! i did what i was asked also keep in mine as of today as i sit and write this i've been in chastity 62 days straight and no milking as of yet.

skip over the mundane cuckold angst while i do my chores like this in pink lace panties.

when Mrs/Mistress was finished her date (dinner), she texted me on her way! when she arrived we hugged each other as one of the children was still up (older). she pushed on my backside and said in a whisper "everything okay!". my reply "all is what you asked is in place".

later when we were getting ready for bed, she told me she wanted on the bed when she came in to her room.
                        a towel
                        big red (8"x 3" Dildo with suction cup)
                        Condom
                        Silicone Lube
                        clover clips
                        and her laptop

as she brushed her teeth i fetched the items she requested. all neatly placed on the foot of her bed.
i left the room passing her in the hall to go fetch a glass of water for my self as was thirsty.

when i got back into the room Mrs/Mistress was in bed topless and working on her laptop, looked like writing some email by the reflection in the mirror on the wall behind her bed.

she without looking up told me to place the clover clips on my nipples, then place a condom on "Big Red" when done to let her know!

did what  i was told.. clit straining in the cage. I old her "done Mistress"

"Good no turn around lets see what plug you have in! Oh so cute and fitting the one with the pink stone to match your panties!"

" so how long has it been in, and how are you doing?"  i replied "it been in for almost 4.5 hours and feels good Mistress!"

"okay so remove the plug and washed good and then put it away!

did the task that i was given.

when i walked in her room, i saw that her nipples were nicely aroused, as i walked by her she made a clearing her throat sound, i turn to look at her as she stated. "that door is not going to lock it self little guy!"

turned and locked the door, and the walked around the bed to my side to see the towel, silicone lube and Big Red on my side.

she the told me to "lube up my ass and then climb up on the bed and try to get "Big red's" head at least in tonight!"

well did that, but took sometime for me in doing but got the head in. and oh fuck did that ever feel good and made me even more excited. and i then slowly moved up and down. she glance at me and back to her screen and a sexy cute grin came across her face... which made even more turn on.

never realized how much of a turn on to be made to do something as well as being ignored while doing it like i was not worthy of the attention... very humiliating and exciting to me more than i ever would have thought.

"how much do you have in you!" she spoke still ignoring me directly. through my gasps of excited short breaths i told her "the head maybe a little more Mistress!"

"great to hear" she replied and continued her typing! my eye's when open would go from her beautiful breast/nipples to her beautiful face, thinking to myself "god how much i love her for who she is and how lucky i've had her in my life for so long as well".

after a few seconds/minutes which felt like forever thighs burning nipples slightly burning "Big Red" opening me up and the warmth of the excitement washing over me, Mistress reaches for the nipple chain when my eyes are closed and pull's down hard... but not as hard as she knows i could handle.

the warmth and excitement rushed through me so fast it was totally unreal as the moan and shortness of breath was the only thing i could hear in her room.

"make it slide in just a bit deeper you pathetic cock slut, see your whole body let's me know your such a whore for that "Big Red" filling up your man cunt!" all this was said as she was pulling the chain more.

"come on stroke that clit faster." she says. i did not even realize i was stroking the steel cage like i was jerking off. laughing she says "bet that would feel good to do if it was not locked up".

never before that i can recall my emotion's and mind went everywhere at once and into one space if that make any sense to anyone reading this.

this all end not much afterwards to due the emotions and feeling that came over me! i ended up becoming a blubbering crying idiot.

my thought are as clear as day still.
1. how did i end up like this since we started dating/married.
2. why does my wife (Mistress) deserve a pathetic man like myself.
3. and when did i become so less a man that she married.

that the end of this evening.
ch