Dec 22-23 Merry Christmas - Mistress Words

Your between my legs, your mouth enveloping my dirty whore of a cunt. The warmth of your skin against me envelopes me emotionally, the calm look in your eyes as you give your self up to my need's. 

Looking down on you in your eyes, witnessing my internal emotional fireworks. Your hands on my backside and on either side,  my large breasts rising and falling much faster than i would think from this simple act. My hands firmly clenching the hair on either side of your head. Enjoying the wonderfully heat of your mouth and breath. So intoxicating.

Moving forward, moving downward. Your tongue parting my lips and flicking my clit. The warmth of your mouth and your tongue on me makes it all so desperately hot that and the heat of the shower is making me light headed. You are glancing at me from down below at times but you seem to not even see me as your so excited by this act, trying to make you go even going deeper with your tongue, I am close my eyes. My hands has grip even hard and more forceful if that even possible. Feeling your hands pull at my as cheeks apart as you pull me more into you open working mouth, an then my body starts to shake as i start to cum and a flash of you drink my pee washes into my thoughts so much i cum to more times. your tongue is working so well it like  were looking for something more. Will you find it?

What if i just let it happen right now. My thinking is ”stop!, don't stop don't do this to him, no fuck it do it it turning you on more than you would ever realized it would”. My left hand searching for your right hand to hold as my right hand moves to the back of your head and grabs a different patch of your head of hair. I am terrified and thrilled as i start letting it flow into you open mouth. And this is so awfully hot, specially every-time you swallow you cause more suction to my already pulsating cunt 

i try my best to slowing it down as so give you it all and you don't spill any. As I start to cum again as i start running out of nectar to give you, then pulling you back, as there another small orgasm waiting. This moment I keep, lustful, hungry and eyes glazed. Lips pursed ready for their thrill. Scent of us perfuming the room.

God i so doing this more often!

Mistress to ch

Dec. 22-23 2018 - Humiliation

so let start were i last left off.. i had to drink a bottle full of the Mistress "Golden Nectar" in my Office and got caught doing so by my secretary Beth, i was truly humiliated by this as it was a very personal humiliating to do that i had no control in! as well as to finding out Beth had taken photo's and video of me doing so!

so today as i write this in my Office, Beth has the rest of the week off with pay! blackmailed by her with my wife's help!

so Saturday morning i was awoken by the mistress to come and join her in the shower! as soon as i walked in she ordered me to strip and get on the scale as it was time for my weekly weight in!

so lose a bit of weight! 257 lbs!  going down!! woo hoo! also 85 days now in chastity and no orgasm at all. god my balls ache at times an awful lot these days.

so then i climbed watch the Mistress wash her hair and soap up her front chest, smooth pussy! hmmm

then she turn around and told me to wash her back and ass! hmmm hard as a rock now as i did this. after i did this with her "pink" scrunchy, after Mistress is all soaped up i usually rub her body and pay attention to her ass and legs and ass crack to make sure she clean... but i don't do it in a sexual way or i would get in trouble.

also side note: The Meeting with a lover planned for Sunday was cancelled due to family commitment on our side!  :) Mistress stressed so mush trying to somehow make it work so she could get some much need "Big & Thick" real cock!

getting back to the shower..lol squirrel lol. so soaped her lower rear as i crouched down to do so.. purely for my self to get a awesome view of her ass as i can't see her pussy!

she looks over her shoulders down at me, your really enjoying yourself thee cucky! stay down there and i will turn around and give you a real treat for drinking my pee in front of poor Beth.. hope you enjoyed that unplanned surprise!

"yes Mistress, it was but was also the "most" humiliating thing i ever had to do for you!" i replied.

she said "well i understand, but it made me really hot to know you would lower yourself to do this for me" as i looked up at her i was think god i love the view of her pierced nipples and seeing her face look down as me between the cleavage with water covering her sexy flesh.

she spoke as looked up at her as she was rubbing her hands on her back side removing the soap i'm guessing "so for being such a great submissive cuckold, how about i give you a treat! would you like that?" which i replied so eagerly it made her chuckle "oh yes please i would love that Mistress!" 

 her next question was"when the last time i let you lick and eat what you worship so much?" i replied "not sure.. been quite sometime"

"very true, well come here bitch and lick and eat my juicy cunt now!" she ordered me.

as i leaned forward she grabbed my hair at the same time she lifted her right leg onto the edge on the tub. as i open my mouth to lick her clit and start eating her beautiful pussy i can taste how wet she is. as i pull to speak to her she gabs my head and says "no don't you dare talk.. do what i told you to do you small cock bitch!"

as i do what i'm told and enjoying this whole scene immensely.. she really being extra rough and pushing and moving my head to areas which she wants the attention to be. it was very erotic ans i sure i was leaking pre-cum like crazy!

Mistress started chuckling and spoke up "well i can tell this has you very excited as i can hear you clit cage bouncing off the bottom of the tub"

i could tell she was close to cumming by her breathing.. then i heard her moan and muffle her cry!

now funny most times when she cum's she pushes me away as she becomes overly sensitive this way!

but this time she just held me tight and spoke "god cucky that was so hot, stop using your tongue and open up and suck my whole cunt" to which i did exactly that... "and another moan came then she spoke "you dirty small cock cuck,, drink all my gift or else!"

i thought she was talking about her pussy juice from cumming.. nope she started fill my mouth with her golden nectar... i started swallowing as fast as i could as not to let any escape, what i notice while doing so.. it did not taste anywhere as bad as drink her's yesterday from the bottle. and i was able to so with no gagging!

when she was finished.. she let go of my head and looked down, and what do you say cuck?, which i replied "thank you very much Mistress!"

ch 

Dec. 21 2018 - Public Humiliation

note to all this may gross some people out! i will say sorry but as this my Diary and what happen's in my/out life. it is what it is.

so Mistress came by my place of work today and had some lunch with me an grabbed a bottle of water from the case i keep my office so i won't drink to much coffee or soft drinks!

when we were done she said "well i guess i should get going have somethings to do!", then as i got up she oh i guess i should use the washroom before i head out" and then went down the hall. heard her talking to my receptionist who know i'm her cuckold! as she served me coffee the Mistress dropped off at her desk to give me with sometimes the word's written in marker from the store "For the cuckold husband".

she gave me a kiss and hug and we said our good bye's, noticing the water bottle she had placed down before we hugged and kissed to say our goodbyes. i said "hey here water" not looking at it just grabbing it and picking up to hand to her.

She smiled gave me a deep kiss, pulled away and said "cucky that for you, i want it all gone in 15 min. max I made it fresh for you so don't you dare pour it out, do i need to ask Beth to come in an check?"

i looked at and realized it had a hint of yellow-ish to it!

'OMG' she filled it with her pee! i said "but..."

she cut me off by saying "NO but's unless you would like to lick mine for the next 2 weeks after movement cucky!"

i looked down defeated and said in a low tone "yes Mistress i promise it will be done as you ordered"

gave me a kiss on the cheek and grabbed my cock in it's tiny steel cock cage and squeezed my balls and turned and left, i heard her say "bye Beth  have a great weekend!"

10 min later Beth walked in as i was drinking my special drink!  "oh god you must really lover her, i did think you could get any lower, let me see you take a big chug of that.. or i tell your wife you would listen to me!"

i said "Beth come on this is embarrassing enough she making me do this.. please don't ask me!" Beth reached into her pocket of her slacks and pulled out her phone and started dialing.

"No i'll do it!"

i picked up the bottle and raised it to my mouth closed my eyes mainly not to see her eyes looking at me as i did it! and started chugging as much as i could with out gagging!

"click, click"  my flashed open. "Beth what are you doing!"

"saving this for a rainy day Mr. (cuckold).

i started crying.. and ding text came in looking down.. wife "wrote  hey just saw the little video Beth sent me and 2 pictures! good job!" for that i promised Beth would be given the work days off next week with pay"

sadly you know the rest so don't have to explain it! one of the most publicly humiliating thing my Mistress has done to me.. also sad hard as i can get in my micro cage and know i leaking like mad.

ch

Photo below is of the actual bottle she left me, and one i grabbed to drink as well!

Dec. 20 2018 Teased and Balls abused

last night we had nothing special planned, so Mistress decided she wanted to play a earlier as normally we play just before bed if kids are home.  I was taking a shower;  and when I was finished and went to Mistress bedroom. Mistress decided to  tied me to the bed, Spread Eagle, placed earphones in and a blindfold on.

Mistress then started to tease my balls as was still locked in my chastity cage, until I was getting very horny and as hard as I possible could in the cage would let me be and as I had on the micro cage with the urethra tube.. not much room. Mistress then started to pull on them . It didn’t hurt as much, that did last long as every time she pulled and twisted.. she was doing it harder. Mistress then sat on my chest and started to lightly in a more playful manner  tease my balls again.

she was treating to a very rare licking and sucking of my balls. Mistress then started every few seconds slap my balls. they weren’t  really hard smacks, but after a few the pain was increasing and started lasting longer and longer and the pain would build up and it really started to hurt. Between the smacks Mistress would tease and rub my balls until the next smack. After about ten minutes of slapping and teasing, I felt Mistress rubbing cream on my balls, and a short while after  an realized it wasn’t any cream, it was Deep Heat.

it really started to burn a lot. Mistress then moved off  my chest and paused the music and told me that I had to handle the pain until she came. Mistress then took a glass dildo and started to massage her clit. It didn’t take long until Mistress came and it seemed like she came quite hard. Honestly I really couldn’t focus much on what Mistress was doing, the pain was just too much. The burning was getting real intense.

after Mistress came, she took a wet cool cloth and wiped all the Deep Heat of my balls. It did take a while for the burning to stop. Mistress then rubbed some lotion on my balls, it really felt amazing, both soothing and it made me horny all over again. while my balls were calming down Mistress climbed up and sat on my face and made me lick her.. at first I realized it was her ass. and noticed as is it was not unbearable to do.. it was also not washed before playing.. this was defiantly a new for the Mistress.

then when she dad enough she moved so that I was now licking her pussy, it was soaked.. it was really erotic and even felt like there might have been a load of cum in her.. which my mind raced, as I was licking she ended up moving back and force more like I was being used to make her cum from my face. all of a sudden I knew she was cumming by the motion’s her body was making and the flood of juice coating me face and mouth.

After that Mistress calmed down she got off me and  untied me, and then we cuddle in bed watching Netflix on the TV, till the soft breathing of her telling me she had fallen asleep.

ch

Dec 18 2018 - a random question

how many of cuckolds out there who read this diary, have a (hot) wives, girlfriend or Femdom Mistress that almost demand that you suck the cocks of her Bulls/lovers, as she likes to see you do it and turns her on?

ch



on a side thought, i was think of doing cuckold outing of other's if they wanted.. who the are.. no real names will be posted.
where they are from and what the like or do.. a voice for all fellow cuckold's who wish to do so. let me know what you think!

Dec. 15-16 2018 All she wants for Christmas is big hard cock!

so found a bull for Mistress and we set a date for them with me in tow. there date for erotic fun is this upcoming weekend if all goes to plan.

Mistress is very excited and they've chatted and text a couples times on the weekend.

Mistress also 2 weeks ago put me on better eating plan to loose some weight.

i'm doing my best to eat healthier as well a get more exercise as well.

So my official weigh in Nov. 30  was 265.0.
                     my weigh in Dec.08 was 258.5                   so loss - 6.5

last weigh in this weekend Dec. 16 was 258.0                 so loss - .5

not as good as we all hoped but did eat out twice this week.. so for that my Mistress made me have my morning coffee with a big load of frozen cum in it!  and then teased me about it the whole time!

these photo's are not of my coffee cup as the cum. took a photo.. but cum sank right to the bottom so it really looks more like black coffee.

alos 75 days now locked in chastity as of Dec.17 2018 when i posted this.

ch

Dec. 10 2018 - Bull Searching

so for the past 2 weeks i been online lately, on one of the many Adult Dating sites looking for a "new" regular lover for my Mistress/Wife. for anyone who has done this.. it a lot of work!

so out of nowhere i get a chat invite, i except.. we chat for sometime. and looks promising!

will keep you posted!

ch

Diary Update Dec 04 2018

so many things to put in here.. and so many things taking up our everyday life to have time to put down for my reflection at a later date in my elderly life.

one new on for us was last Friday evening (November 30) Mrs/Mistress was out on a date in the Ottawa Market, while i was doing the fatherly thing for/with our 2 of 3 kids.

she had sent me a text before going to supper and told me she wanted me to insert the largest butt plug i could handle as it been sometime that i've had one in me! i did what i was asked also keep in mine as of today as i sit and write this i've been in chastity 62 days straight and no milking as of yet.

skip over the mundane cuckold angst while i do my chores like this in pink lace panties.

when Mrs/Mistress was finished her date (dinner), she texted me on her way! when she arrived we hugged each other as one of the children was still up (older). she pushed on my backside and said in a whisper "everything okay!". my reply "all is what you asked is in place".

later when we were getting ready for bed, she told me she wanted on the bed when she came in to her room.
                        a towel
                        big red (8"x 3" Dildo with suction cup)
                        Condom
                        Silicone Lube
                        clover clips
                        and her laptop

as she brushed her teeth i fetched the items she requested. all neatly placed on the foot of her bed.
i left the room passing her in the hall to go fetch a glass of water for my self as was thirsty.

when i got back into the room Mrs/Mistress was in bed topless and working on her laptop, looked like writing some email by the reflection in the mirror on the wall behind her bed.

she without looking up told me to place the clover clips on my nipples, then place a condom on "Big Red" when done to let her know!

did what  i was told.. clit straining in the cage. I old her "done Mistress"

"Good no turn around lets see what plug you have in! Oh so cute and fitting the one with the pink stone to match your panties!"

" so how long has it been in, and how are you doing?"  i replied "it been in for almost 4.5 hours and feels good Mistress!"

"okay so remove the plug and washed good and then put it away!

did the task that i was given.

when i walked in her room, i saw that her nipples were nicely aroused, as i walked by her she made a clearing her throat sound, i turn to look at her as she stated. "that door is not going to lock it self little guy!"

turned and locked the door, and the walked around the bed to my side to see the towel, silicone lube and Big Red on my side.

she the told me to "lube up my ass and then climb up on the bed and try to get "Big red's" head at least in tonight!"

well did that, but took sometime for me in doing but got the head in. and oh fuck did that ever feel good and made me even more excited. and i then slowly moved up and down. she glance at me and back to her screen and a sexy cute grin came across her face... which made even more turn on.

never realized how much of a turn on to be made to do something as well as being ignored while doing it like i was not worthy of the attention... very humiliating and exciting to me more than i ever would have thought.

"how much do you have in you!" she spoke still ignoring me directly. through my gasps of excited short breaths i told her "the head maybe a little more Mistress!"

"great to hear" she replied and continued her typing! my eye's when open would go from her beautiful breast/nipples to her beautiful face, thinking to myself "god how much i love her for who she is and how lucky i've had her in my life for so long as well".

after a few seconds/minutes which felt like forever thighs burning nipples slightly burning "Big Red" opening me up and the warmth of the excitement washing over me, Mistress reaches for the nipple chain when my eyes are closed and pull's down hard... but not as hard as she knows i could handle.

the warmth and excitement rushed through me so fast it was totally unreal as the moan and shortness of breath was the only thing i could hear in her room.

"make it slide in just a bit deeper you pathetic cock slut, see your whole body let's me know your such a whore for that "Big Red" filling up your man cunt!" all this was said as she was pulling the chain more.

"come on stroke that clit faster." she says. i did not even realize i was stroking the steel cage like i was jerking off. laughing she says "bet that would feel good to do if it was not locked up".

never before that i can recall my emotion's and mind went everywhere at once and into one space if that make any sense to anyone reading this.

this all end not much afterwards to due the emotions and feeling that came over me! i ended up becoming a blubbering crying idiot.

my thought are as clear as day still.
1. how did i end up like this since we started dating/married.
2. why does my wife (Mistress) deserve a pathetic man like myself.
3. and when did i become so less a man that she married.

that the end of this evening.
ch

October 31. 2018 South USA

So on holiday with the Mrs./Mistress down in the southern USA. Last night we went out for the evening just for nothing other than a fun time.. as it been quite sometime for the both of us.

Well at one point I left our table to go to the bathroom as stomach was feeling a bit off. As was gone for some time, when I came back the Mrs was talking to large men and they looked like they were in deep conversation, but smiling and saw some flirting going on so I moved back to place in the bar were I could keep and an eye on things and she could find me if she wished.

Won't go into long story about it... maybe later.

But I now sit by the pool of one of the men last evening in only a pair of pink panties and locked in a micro steel chastity cage with a urethra tube.

As Mistress is in the home having fun with 3 Alpha males. I'm to sit until called upon for what ever there needs be.

...unsure what that might intale!


Photo is taken from where I stit as I wrote this.
ch

Happy first day of Kink-tober! for 2018

Kinktober 2018

A list of ideas for 2018 version is completed!!

Most of what’s on here are thought on what many might like!, but please do what you want and let us know what you have or might change there’s always room for improvement.

So, without further ado, start your fun for the month!

1. Deep-Throating | Inflation | Face-Sitting | Masks
2. Ass Worship | Begging | Medical play | Water-sports
3. Sensory Deprivation | Temperature Play | Edge-play | Knife Play
4. Spanking | Mirror Sex | Spit-roasting | Crying
5. Feet | Sadism/Masochism | cum drinking
6. Corset | Cock Worship or cunt Worship | Biting
7. Praise-kink |  Aphrodisiacs | Humiliation acts
8. Prostitution/Sex Work | Butt Plug | Hate-fucking/Angry Sex
9. Tit-fucking | Physical Overpowering| Bondage | Lingerie
10. Hair-pulling | Wax-play | Drinking a glass of Urine with Cum
11. Object Insertion | Sounding | Cross-dressing
12. Licking | Pet Play | Rimming/Analingus | Costume
13. Distant/Distracted Sex | Gags | Cream-pie
14. Asphyxiation | Cunnilingus | Manicure and Pedicure
15  Human Furniture | Over-stimulation | Intercrural Sex |Uniforms
16. Nipple Play | Frottage | Body Worship | Sixty-nine
17. Masturbation | Seduction | Collaring | Orgasm Denial
18. Fucking Machine | Latex | Role Reversal
19. Public | Formal Wear | Restrained | Cock-Warming
20. Urophagia | Hot-Dogging | Dirty talk
21. Bukakke | Cum-Food play | Suspension | Branding
22. Impact Play | Cuckolding | Hand-jobs | Threesome (or more)
23. Scars | Master/Slave | Shibari | Size Difference
24. Pegging | Leather | Lap-dances |Shower/Bath
25. Tickling | Boot Worship | Scent
26. Roleplay | Smiles/Laughter | Toys
27. Exhibitionism/Voyeurism | Degradation | Weapon Play | Against a wall
28. Stripping/Striptease | Vore | Humiliation
29. Glory hole | Double (Or more) Penetration | Sleepy Sex | Massage
30. Gagging | Stockings/Tights/Pantyhose | Breast Worship | Swallowing
31. Any combination of the above!

Again, this isn’t really a formal challenge or anything. More of just a general attempt to produce some filthy, filthy things in October of 2018. Sure, it may be early, but some people (myself included) like having plenty of time to plan things out. Feel free to drop an ask in the inbox with any questions! 

Will post updates on soon on what been going on in our lives.

Post on comment left by lovetosubmit3 July 2018

so i/we received a nice comment from one of blog reader’s. which i had no idea or thought anyone would read let alone some have click following! for those 2 so far again “thank you”.

the following comment was left on a blog post entitled “One Sign you might be a cuckold! the Porn Preference poated April 25 2018” 

Everything below in Bold is the original comment from lovetosubmit3

Just found your blog. I guess I'm an ex-cuckold now. Wife quit the lifestyle but I very much crave and reflect fondly of our time with her having sex with younger men. - well lovetosubmit3 thanks for reading my diary blog, haven’t been doing for long so have not missed that much. ex-cuck, that must be tough as hell if you were living it and enjoying it! so sorry to hear that and do understand that life will always change things that might effect us or not. can totally under stand the craving part as well as many other men who might not even be living the cuckold life. thanks for the insight on her desire at the time of play! cool to hear how other play as we all play differently.

I will try to get through your posts, as i'm interested in how you got involved/started in the LS as well as how you live it out as day to day. we we evolved actually we were swinger’s on and off but as much as I enjoyed other women I found I really enjoyed more watching my wife with other’s and enjoying herself so freely! as we have a children in our house hold we live the day to day more low key as possible (kids are smart so don’t think your fooling them if you let one thing slip).

But related to porn, I recently had the epiphany that just about all male/female porn is cuckold to a certain extent. It involves a fit, hung male having sex with a ridiculously sexy woman in front of a crew of a bunch of men, and then it's mostly consumed by men. In short, the bull/stud is the envy of hundreds of other men who jerk off to HIS sex life. Just think about that for a second. part of this I must agree never looked at it that way… but hell is not true that we would rather watch a well hung guy fuck the sexy ladies than watch a under endowed male doing so!

Backing up a bit in my formative years I rented a bunch of porn tapes, late 80s early 90s era. I realized that girl-girl was simply not something that turned me on. So I would screen my tape rentals, looking at the porn stars and I would literally count the male/female ratio. I developed some sort of proclivity to MFM. I just thought it was so hot to see two hard cocks "competing" for the attention of a single female. And after all, a woman is far, far, more sexually capable of handling two males than the converse. we totally agree, Mrs also want to see the women with large natural breast as well! and as mentioned above when in our swinging years, i learn to read what turned me on more.

At any event, I rented a movie where a hetero couple were going at it near a pool and a well known male star "snuck up" on them, was turned on and jerked himself off while hiding. And I was so turned on by that that I ejaculated across the room. very cool and do understand how that would be such a turn on. Not only do I enjoy the idea of two men and one woman, my submissive side gets really turned on by the idea of one of the males being sexually superior to the other. Examples: one male has to wear a condom, while the other does not; one man gets her pussy while the other one gets a blowjob or a handjob. I guess that is a form of cuckolding as I suggest above. yes it is if you look at it that way. but to the young and horny they would never read more into that sex act's.

It was not until much later that I actually discovered true cuckolding porn where the "husband" was "forced" to watch his wife get fucked by a superior male. And I do like that - a lot. well it is very hot to think of as well as being in that place! 

Thouhts?  so my thought are like how your mind thinks and for anyone reading your comment will also be enlighten, as we grow we learn, some people never get into the wilder side of sex like us, so do! when we do enter that phase we learn  more about or like and desires and test the water's till we become the cuckold we are today!  we played lightly.. more just watching her with other's then we added stuff slowly by testing. pegging, chastity cage, light submissive.. etc. 

today i a proud submissive bi cuckold who will do almost and i mean almost anything that please my Mrs/ Mistress. we delved in area's we had talked about never wanting and found we do enjoy now!

please remember how we play is because we have a lot of love as well as trust in each other.. never go in if you are not on the both level field, it can go wrong in so many ways.

ch  

Thank again to lovetosubmit3 for this post!

sorry for my hiatus

i apologize for length of  time since my last post. if anything, i'm unsure how/if i will go into the full reasons why but will at least find the time soon to write a brief reason.  

to say that we've had a rough road for the past few weeks in our house hold is not the full reason as normal everyday life will always show it head, be it for a good or a bad reasons. that's how life works.

ch

also would like to welcome to that took the courage to follow me for what ever there reason are!

so thank you for following me/US ... John S

and so thank you for following me/US ... Paul Stevens

June 13 2018 Diary update - Coffee Delivery ???

Start Day Locked in Chastity: May 11 2018

Day: 34 DAYS to date.

11:18 am

okay so this is weird this literally just happen an hour and half ago, i had walked away from my desk to deal with something in the back. when i came back there was Starbucks Coffee cup on my desk, found out later it actually was a Caramel Macchiato!

i asked my secretary where did the coffee came from, her reply it came by Uber as was told it was for you so i put on your desk. it came shortly after you left to go into the back.

written on it very clearly with a black marker "For the Cuckold Husband ;)", my head raced a million miles thinking what the hell. try calling the Mrs/Mistress and it just rang and in the back ground i hear a comment from my secretary i was unable to hear clearly as my focus was on try to get a hold of my wife with no luck.

i asked my secretary "what was that?".

her reply was "That was nice of your wife to be thinking of you and left you a special note on the cup for you!"

yes she knows i'm a cuckold, but i still wanted to crawl under my desk and hide.

Text came in from my wife that read " Sweetie stop calling i'm busy in a hotel room with a large friend, he's the one who bought you the coffee and got it sent to your work also took the rest of the day off and might be home a bit later".

mind is racing.. still so will leave off for now! will upload a photo of the coffee cup when i get a chance!

ch

Edit Diary Post: 4:00 PM  adding this photo of the cup on my desk that i took.

no word or text from the Wife/Mistress

Dear Diary: June 12 2018

Start Day Locked in Chastity: May 11 2018

Day: 33 DAYS to date.

so it's been hectic lately in the household and have a few post that i'm working on but sadly as well behind on having them finished.

did notice that i seem to have a bit more traffic of people checking out my online diary, but sadly no comment good or bad as of yet!

did notice on my/our stats that the word so far people are searching to find my Diary is  the words "cuckold living".

ch

June 04 2018 – last night’s dream

Start Day Locked in Chastity: May 11 2018

Day:26 DAYS to date

Dear Diary:

being locked in chastity has done my head in so many ways this time, so not really sure why or the reason this time around. we been playing like this since the fall of 2010, i been locked in chastity way longer than this before longest for me was just under 2 months.

maybe because i been teased and given more attention by my Wife/Mistress or maybe the new smallest stainless steel cage we own. really not sure why and honestly it would be a “freaken” guess to give you one straight answer.

so the further i fall even further into my submissive role another dream rise’s with me when i open my eyes to the tightness of the cage and hardness trying it’s best to fill it!

the dream i vividly woke up to this morning is written to the best of my memory without changing or embellishment.

this is being written as i sit in my office at work in spare moments i have throughout the day hopping i have it completed before i go home.

The Dream #3

i’m asleep but feel the bed shaking ever so lightly and a noise, it seems a bit familiar to me but can’t figure it out exactly. i also feel the light breeze coming in through the open widow on my side of the bed as well as the noise from the bird’s chirping and the squirrels make their funny little cry.

as i roll over to see what the shaking about and noise i slowly start to wake, i am caught off guard by the vision my eye’s adjust to seeing and it a damn hot and very erotic sight to be seen. i truly wanting to just take it all in and be ever so quite as a afraid it will go poof and disappear from my line of sight.

there in my sight line is my beautiful Wife/Mistress her top raised up above her beautiful breast her hot breasts exposed to the air and her pierced nipples hard,  engorged & elongated form her self-stimulation. her left hand can be clearly seen cupping her left breast and between squeezing the whole breast and move and puling and twisting her pierced nipple.

i look up into her face to see if she saw or even noticed me watching her now. her beautiful face contorted in clear passion, her eyes tightly shut and her whole face to me looks like she just feeling the moment she was clearly in.

as i move my eyes slowly down her body going from the view of her face to view her neck, then the bunched up top above her breast and then down to her stomach half way her right arm comes into my view and I follow that to see it has found it way into her shorts she was sleeping in last night.

and “ah-a” that the what the noise is she was masturbating which is a very extremely rare thing for her to do on her own, her shorts moving in different motion’s sometimes fast some time slow, her hand look like it changed and or moved to the rhythm of the strokes she was giving herself.

i was enthralled by her action’s and watching her almost nude body her breathing getting heavier and her chest rising more and a flushing of color showing up  just about her breasts. with what was going on i got scared as and looked past her body to check our bedroom door to see if it was open like we usually do. it was closed and by the looks of it locked from what i could tell, then i was jarred from that view by the fact she raised her hips off the bed into a bit of an arch and both hands on either side slid the shorts off to her middle thigh and then a leg came up and it sort of came off by the one leg sliding it down so she was able to spread her legs apart and the beauty of her pubic area was now clearly in my view.

i marveled at the area as it looked smoother than i  have never seen in real life other, as she continued to take care of her needs with and concern or knowledge i even present. as i continue to stare at her hand movement on her pubic mound, she starts to moan and i look up towards her face to see her lips parted in the sexual state one can get when one wish to take in air and exhale those deeper breaths from their erotic sate.

and then she starts to speak in like she having sex with someone, telling them “deeper “

“Mmmm”

“of fuck that feels so good”

“Mmmm”

“god I need your cock way more than I ever gat already as my husbands is so fucking small, it’s pathetic”

“Mmmm”

“Oh God Deeper that feels so good”

“Mmmm”

“Faster, harder please”

“Mmmmmm”

“Ohhhh I going to cummmm, fill me up with your load of spermmmmm”

“Mmmm”

“Fuck yeah!!”

“Mmmmmmmm”

“Yeahhhhh  that’s it oh Goddddd”

“AAAAAAhhhhhh”

and then I woke up in pain, my cage was being pulled and ensuing pulling my balls even tighter by the locking ring.

Ch

** Please if you like or understand us, leave a comment please for my Mistress of I to read and reply if needed!

June 02 2018 Diary Update

Start Day Locked in Chastity: May 11 2018

Day: 25 DAYS

Dear Diary,

Mistress teased my relentless all weekend, with various times being told to go put on my nipples (clover/Butterfly Clamps) and either pulling on them or putting on some very homemade weights on them and having me do chores. 

she also through out the weekend would grab my crotch and say "hey little man were that big hard cock of your's?"

and then reply her self before i could respond "Oh yeah you don't really have a cock that's any use to me, that why i fuck and suck real size cock's when i want!"

and during my 2 times taking my morning shower, unlocked under her supervision she both times got a had full of conditioner and stroked my "clit" as she called this weekend and on and off like she was trying to give me a ruined orgasm.

when my right leg started shaking uncontrollably from the stimulation and being so turn on. she would stop and said "ok time to rinse and get out and dry off and get locked up again."

sunday morning she actually had to use ice on me as it would not get soft to put back on the cage.

ch

p.s. i learning to be a pain slut, as i'm really enjoying the nipple clamps these days. an Mistriss is really enjoying watching my erotic suffering as well.

May 27 2018 - Wife/Mistress foot care

Start Day Locked in Chastity: May 11 2018

Day: 17 DAYS

Dear Diary: LOL so this evening i was told to take care of Mistress feet this evening.

the care to be provided would be using and emery type stone to take the roughness off the bottom of her soles due to the fact of wearing sandals again,  also to do the sanding and cutting of her toe nails and then to apply skin moisturizer and rub that into her skin as i massage them.

and to do so nude and with the clover nipple clamps on as well as still locked in chastity.

during the act of doing each step i was to come up and give her a kiss only after she checked that i had done a great job on each step (foot).

each time i did a task and took my time double checking myself to see if it was done to the best of my abilities, i would then speak to her as she ignored me in general playing mah-jong on her tablet.

“how this for you Mistress?” i would say to her.

her reply would be “well what do you think my small man?”, then she would check it herself. Sometimes she would make a comment other times she would just say “come here and get your kiss my cuckold!”

i would crawl across the bed to face to give her a kiss, as she kissed me each time she would reach up and pull the chain slowly but very firmly. each time it she pulled on the chain harder and each time i moaned in her mouth as we kissed and as she pulled away she had a sexy cheshire cat smile and said next foot.

i said “thank you Mistress” and did the next task.

at the end when all was done to her request she gave me a big long kiss and the hardest pull on the chain. then she said “so your reward cucky for doing such a great job on my feet you may take a deep inhale my cunt but “No” contact what so ever down there!!”.

as i got on my side and put my head between her thighs with about an inch between her woman hood and my nose i started to take a deep breath, as i did so she pulled on the chains slowly but also the hardest yet while i was coming to the end of my lung capacity.

i could feel tears well up and trying to stifle the cry as i wanted to let out, but kids were asleep in their rooms and did not want then to hear what their parents maybe up to.

when i exhaled as I could not inhale anymore, she lifted her right leg and place it on my chest as she let go of the chain at the same time and then proceed to push me hard away and stating “okay put all the stuff away and go brush your teeth and get ready for bed”.

i did what was asked of me and then when i re-entered the bedroom she said come here let me remove the chain. she gave me a kiss pulled on the chain then she stopped kissing me and said “stay locked onto my eyes and keep them open”.

as i looked into her beautiful brown sexy eyes she pulled the chain harder and harder until my cock was bouncing in the small stainless steel chastity cage and my eyes welled up and started rolling back into my head as the pain and erotic pleasure came thundering into my chest and soul.

when i really did think i couldn’t  take anymore she stopped and cupped both nipples and played with them and then released them fast together almost made me cum for the plain and pleasure of that.

past me the chain into my open palm and then said “ put these away and then it’s time for you to go get some sleep cucky!”

it funny for some reason did not take me as long to fall asleep than i thought it would. but i had a smile don’t know if it was on my face but was in my core for sure.

ch

May 25 2018 – May 22 2018 Diary Update

Start Day Locked in Chastity: May 11 2018

Day: 15 DAYS

May 22 2018

i received text from Mrs/Mistress that read: “ Paying the Bill shortly, so please leave to come pick me up now, and “HAVE” the chain on when you drive to get me!! “

so last evening i was asked to pick up the wife at a restaurant she was at with some fellow colleagues. i had very strict instructions  to have the clover nipple clamps on to go pick her up. as i figured my Wife/Mistress might want  to pull on them as i drove then i thought I should rig something up so my Wife/Mistress would be able to so.

FYI: using string tied to the middle of the chain and using a large spring clip fasten to my flap of my jean zipper area.  ran the cord through the loop of one of the metal loops that help open the spring to attach it to whatever in needs to hold.

when i pulled up to the downtown restaurant, there was my beautiful sexy  Wife/Mistress, all smiles talking  too 2 of her  co-workers.

my Wife/Mistress open the rear door to the car ( I would normally stop the car and get out and open the door for her but were in downtown core and there was lots of traffic) and let the 2 of them in and she climbed into the front. my Wife/Mistress made the introductions and gave me a kiss on the cheek as i nonchalantly passed her the loop of cord. she looked quizzical until i lifted my shirt showing what i had done with my left hand as i said my hello’s  too her co-workers and her smiled grew and she then pulled slowly to test it out as she watched my face ( this i was told later by her).

so as i drove the 2 co-workers to their individual homes they made small talk among themselves, but anytime one talked to me and i had to answer, my Wife/Mistress pulled the cord. sometimes it was a light pull others a more aggressive one.

after we dropped the last one off and drove off down the street which we ended at a stop sign. my Wife/Mistress told me to lift my shirt over my nipples so she could see then when she wish to pull them.

as we drove toward our home and we were still in a residential neighborhood she was have quite the fun. she let me know that she was very proud of the way i had worked the cord in to make it more fun for her than she thought she would have for our drive. she said i had also did a great effort to keep my composure during all the talking.

when we got home i got out of the car and open the door for her and as she climbed out of it she pulled the cord down to pull harder on than ever. as she got out she grabbed the chain and pulled me to give me an open mouth kiss, as we kissed she pulled again quite hard and then ran both hands to each nipple and still kissing released the clover clamps and then massaged my nipples to bring back the feeling.

Then we into our home like the very vanilla people that our neighbors think we really are! LOL

ch

May 24 2018 - the second of the two submissive dreams while locked in Chastity

Start Day Locked in Chastity: May 11 2018

Day: 14 DAYS

submissive dreams

I had 2 different dreams on Sunday 21.2018 both made we wake up in pain from my cock/clit getting hard in my very small stainless steel chastity cage. I will just give you a brief interpretation’s of my dreams so they don’t come off as some fantasy story.

the Second Dream:

not sure how this all came about in the dream or why.  all i know in the dream i was sleeping on my side facing  the outside edge of the bed with my back toward the inside of the bed.  in the dream and felt so real was my wife cuddled up to me in my naked form with chastity cage on. her arm wraps around me and just holds me and i smile inside and the feel of comfort, feeling secure as well as loved.

her arm just holding me below my chest, then it moves up to my left nipple which is also pierced and start’s lightly playing with it.  and after some time starts playing with the ring by pulling in and twisting. I feel and hear the moan of lust coming out of me. and then as she doing this she adjusts her body and feel a phallus on my ass. and the feel her rocking her hips to which it responds by sliding between my ass and top of my thighs.

and then her moves to play with my cage as I feel her phallus start to enter my anal cavity.

i woke up with my cock straining in the small stainless steel cage, I sure I was humping my body pillow and the Mrs was just climbing out of bed and heading into the shower.

ch

May 23 2018 - one of the two submissive dreams while locked in Chastity

Start Day Locked in Chastity: May 11 2018
Day: 13

submissive dreams

I had 2 different dreams on Sunday 21.2018 both made we wake up in pain from my cock/clit getting hard in my very small stainless steel chastity cage. I will just give you a brief interpretation’s of my dreams so they don’t come off as some fantasy story.

the First Dream:

was me and the Wife/Mistress walking down St. Catherine’s street in downtown Montreal Quebec, as we walked by the many shops, She stops at one pull’s me into a tattoo parlor and start talking to a beautiful lady with many tattoo’s and a few facial piercing's, then the Lady come to me and say’s “come this way please!”.  

i’m not sure why i she telling me to “come this way”, but i do and we go into this room where i’m told to remove my shirt and i just do what asked of me. She looks at my chest with the one nipple pierced i do have and leaves to comes back  shortly afterwards. the she tells me to lie down and start’s to pierce my other nipple in a gauge that looks the same as the one i have already, once I do the Lady peircer looks at my Wife/Mistress and say “there how does he look now??"

My Wife/Mistress then states "wel cucky? i’ve marked you in my own way now!”

then i woke up sore and hard in my chastity cage, looking at the clock it read 4:55 am. took a bit of time before calming down and went back to sleep some time

ch

May 22 2018 Dear Diary

Start Day Locked in Chastity: May 11 2018
Day: 12

i/we had a really nice talk with my Wife/Mistress on the past Long weekend,  as we walked around the Lansdowne Park Shopping Area on the only free day we had in our very hectic busy weekend.

we spoke about each other desire’s wishes, just making sure things were still the same in our Lifestyle Journey.

we talked about my lack of desire to be with another women in the way most men wish to be, being locked in chastity makes one really think of what they wish, want and crave more than i ever noticed before as this is not new to us at all.

my Wife/Mistress still desires a lover for her who also maybe share Domming over me as well.

we also talked about my dream i had that morning as well. 

Which I will write in a different post

ch

May 16 2018 last night while locked in Chastity

Start Day Locked in Chastity: May 11 2018
Day: 6

so as a cuckold husband to a Femdom wife, one never knows what is on your superior’s  mind. normally when i get home we prepare supper and from all outside we are a normal household with kids at home.

as i stated I’ve been locked in chastity since last Friday May 11. 2018. this not the longest time by any stretch of the imagination for me. But I got home last night to a unexpected surprise for my Femdom/wife, i was told as we were having some company over this weekend she want both bathroom to be clean and they would be inspected… so I was to do a great job or else!

so off i went to go gather the supplies i would need rags, glass cleaner, toilet bowel cleaner as spray bubbles bathroom cleaner. as i was just starting to work on the basement bathroom i was yelled to come upstairs to the main level.

when i got into the kitchen where she was cooking supper, without looking at me she said to remove my t-shirt now, after doing so she passed to me a med size butt plug and said you know what to do, when done come back here. after doing what i was told butt plug in place, locked in smallest steel chastity cage and pretty lace panties she urn to me and place clover clamps on my nipples that has a chain attaching them together.

after all was said i said thank you and turn to do my task i was sentence to do in my new condition, “Hey I did not say you can leave now! Did I?”

i replied “no Mistress, sorry!” and turn back to face her.

she walked toward me and then gave me a nice sensual kiss reaching up without my knowledge as we kissed pulled the chain down so the clamps bit more into my nipples and then turn while still holding pulled me toward the counter. all this and made me rock hard as can be in my cage and took my breath away.

Side note about me: we both have noticed i have started to become a pain slut when aroused.

and then she attached our most heaviest (home made by moi) weight we have, and said now you’re ready to go do your task.. you have half an hour before the kids come home so get a move on it now!

and the task is what i did to the best of my ability and it passed the her inspection, just as the kids came home so she grabbed my t-shirt and took a rolled up section and told me open my mouth and stuffed it in. then she looked me in the eyes and said “keep your eyes on mine” and reached for the clamps to removed them from my overly stretched and abused nipples.

as she removed them the pain was intense and extremely erotic and the she put both her hands on my sore nipples to rub them and more pain then got less intense as blood flow was going back to them. when she felt enough time had passed she reached up and took the t-shirt out of my mouth and said “great job bitch!!”.

get your shirt on and come set the table, gave me a kiss again and forced (lol) her tongue into my mouth and as she took her tongue out each hand came up fast as we kissed and grabbed my nipples and pulled, i thought i died and went to heaven.

“Get dressed and go do your job!!! Now!”

ch

And Another Sign: Wife Pride

this one’s a somewhat trickier. 

i’m not talking about being proud of a trophy wife and displaying her like some prized possession in your collection of masculine bravado. 

no, i’m talking about the pride a submissive husband feels when he can see someone else checking out his wife/girlfriend/lover – a swell of erotic pride that comes from knowing other guys envy you as they want her in a sexual way.

             1. if you get a chubby when you notice other guys scoping out your wife, this could mean you have desires to be a cuckold.

2. if you love for your wife to wear a provocative attire & enticing clothes she has when you go out, his could mean you have desires to be a cuckold.

3. if your friend's talk's to you of wishing a go at your wife, and you can't think of anything else but that and makes you hard, this could mean you have desires to be a cuckold.

ch

May 15 2018 thoughts and desire's while locked in Chastity

Start Day Locked in Chastity: May 11 2018
Day: 5

last night i was told to prepare supper and cook a large package of chicken for the week. now to anyone who aware the chicken is from Costco... so fairly large amount of chicken.

so turn on the BBQ and let it warm up. i was then informed to reinsert the butt plug till the morning like i have to do for the rest of the week so far. this is removed during my morning shower as i have to work and she say's not fair for me to have in that long period during my busy work schedule.

this does not mean i unlocked at all from chastity cage, just so you know that to stay as far as i know till Friday evening.

but being locked up and filled makes one submissive mind wander with lustful thoughts which, hey end up turning somewhat dirty or kink most times ... well for me anyways.

won't get into those right now but leave for a post maybe Friday or Saturday.

ch

May 11 to 14, 2018 my thoughts and desire's while locked in Chastity

Start Day Locked in Chastity: May 11 2018
Day: 4

i was asked by my wife/mistress what kind of gift would i give to her freely for the whole Mother's Day weekend. i was told it could not be a store purchase and it had to be a cuckold gift only.

so as the gift had one that showed my love to her as being the mother of our children, she does tease me at times that they aren't from my seed as my cock could never go that deep.

so my gift was to be locked up in the smallest of the chastity cages we own. and it was to be for the whole weekend (she tell's me the following day she understood the week so it now for the week!

also add was a medium butt plug and panties and to do so, all the chores requested by her like this.

here are some photo of the exact item's i referring too!

 

ch

And Another Sign: One’s Submissive Tendencies

Really not all cuckolds enjoy submission or even wish to be submissive, but a good many of them do from the start or some like myself grown to desire it more and more. 

Supposedly this is especially prominent among men working in executive or management positions or men who are typically dominate in everyday life social status. This I really don’t believe to be as true as it once was as a blue collar working class I wish to have the cash flow to treat my wife and family more than I can.

Sometimes letting go, and letting someone else take the reins can be liberating and sexy as hell.

If you secretly wish your partner would be more aggressive or dominant in bed, this could mean you have desires to be a cuckold.

If the idea of letting your partner “control” your sexuality (think cock cage) excites you, this could mean you have desires to be a cuckold.

If you have overt masochistic tendencies (you enjoy painful, physical or mental stimulus) this could mean you have desires to be a cuckold.

If the idea of having someone else tell you what to do in bed gets you going, this could mean you have desires to be a cuckold.

ch

Another Sign you might be a cuckold! is the Voyeurism Preference

Sign #2: Voyeurism

One of the most defining characteristics of a cuckold is the extreme arousal and excitement he desires thinking of his Wife/Lover with another man or males in general who are greatly endowed, so much he ends up with a overwhelming need he ends up feeling to  watching his partner have sex with someone else as a main focus. It doesn’t really matter if it’s in-person or if he has to  reconstructs a whole mental picture from his partner’s retelling of the story.

The bottom line is that a cuckold loves to watch his partner in the throes of unbridled ecstasy and lust….with someone else.

1.If you’ve ever daydreamed about one of your friends screwing your wife, this could mean you have a desire to be a cuckold.

2.If watching your wife masturbate or put on an erotic show really turns you on, this could mean you have the desire to be a cuckold.

3. If you’ve ever wanted to take your partner to a sex club to watch her in action, this could mean you have the desire to be a cuckold.

ch

One Sign you might be a cuckold! the Porn Preference

Sign #1

In case you’re having trouble swallowing this idea and the fact that so many men do fantasize about cuckolding (pun happily intended), consider this: this book, “A Billion Wicked Thoughts”, it's revealed that the term “cuckold” is the second most searched for word  in all of porn-dom.

Keep in mind that porn do account for over 1/3rd of all internet traffic in the world, which means there are a lot of horny individuals out there. and growing.

So what kind of porn might indicate an interest in the cuckold lifestyle?

Do you like watching a scene where a woman is having sex in front of her lover or husband hot, this could mean you have a desire to be a cuckold.

Do you like watching a scene where a woman is having sex with a well endowed black male in front of her lover or husband hot, this could also mean you have a desire to be a cuckold.

Do you think of your partner when you’re watching a man with a much large cock give it to a woman or even your wife or lover, then this could mean you have a desire to be a cuckold.

If you get turned on watching women dominating men or man, this could mean you have a   desire to be a cuckold.

If you get hard in your shorts when you think about being forced to dress up and act like a girl, this could mean you have a desire to be a sissy cuckold.

Do you get hard in your shorts when you think about humiliated about being less endowed than than the woman's lover,  this could mean you have a desire to be a cuckold and also love SPH which sand's for Small Penis Humiliation..

ch

Do think cuckolds are rare?

NOPE... Think again far from the truth.

According to the Author Dr. David Ley, Ph.D, author of Insatiable Wives and has a Master's and Doctoral degrees in clinical psychology from the University of New Mexico, that up to 20% of the US male population fantasizes about sharing their wife /girlfriend with someone else. 

In case you were wondering, that about to 24 million men in 2017, although Dr. Ley notes that only around 2% of  men will ever actually do anything about their fantasy/desires.

It really rather begs the BIG question, doesn’t it now? 

How do you know or would you know if you’re one of those 24 million men turned on by wife being shared?

How do you know really if you might be a cuckold?

Those question can only really be answered by oneself!

ch

Diary entry. April 5

i’m sitting in my office taking a bit of a mental break from the children i work with. so funny really age does not always make you mature sometimes, these children kind of feed each other somehow and then that cause pointing fingers at he did this he did that.

agggh!

so a lot of time i keep to myself and stay out of there bullshit. which makes me think of many things about our sexual lifestyle choices me and my wife have. funny if my work place co-workers knew if i was a submissive cuckold husband they would freak out. but i don’t really care how they feel as i’m very proud of who and what i am.

so when i work on this part of my job i can do it and think of many things that will get me through the daily work grind and ignore the children as I like to call them and do it safely as know one needs to get injured on the job.

most times i think of erotic stuff about my wife/Mistress and her lovers, or of my submissive desires. which you will see over time as i will put them down for all to see. hope you all have a great day and stay warm as in the Southern Ontario is crazy cold.. Ottawa right now as i write this -8 C but with the windchill factor -22 C,

ch

April 2 - my first blog/Diary entry.

as i sit and stare at the my tablet as i'm listening to one of my many records in my collection which is over 4000 LP's. 

i drift off to my early teenage days of my sexual life that slowly leads me down the road to where i’m happily living now.

i met this beautiful young lady at one of my many jobs that i had while i was in school which was 3 at one time. i can remember so vividly our first date ever which was "An Officer and a Gentleman" as well as her beautiful smile and eyes, to me taking her home after our job.  

f.y.i letting everyone know it was also in the opposite direction (end) of the city. at this point she had a boyfriend, and who really was a selfish insecure guy.

also neither of us drove or even had a car it was walking, bus or cab.

i most times walked her home which was 16 block’s heading east and i actually lived almost 40 block heading south west from the job.

but it never ever bothered me doing this as i really enjoyed her company, sometimes I would catch a bus after i walked her home. other times i would walk the 56 block’s depending on which way i walked and enjoy life and evening that so many of us at that time enjoyed that was all around me.

she was younger than me very pretty and was so protected from the real world i being a bit older than her and was a more of crazy wild metal freak to so many. lol

also for those who care do.. the record i'm listening is a original pressing from the 1980 i purchased then of the Canadian rocker's from the 1980’s called Loverboy and it is also self titled that as well.

that’s all for now sorry if not all sexual!

hope everyone had a great "easter" long weekend. 

p.s. just so you know as a submissive.. i write in lowercase always.

ch

Ottawa Cuckold Info

hello everyone, so i thought i would start with a little info about me.

i am  married husband who is a owned submissive cuckold to a very beautiful Femdom woman who we have been married over 26 years now, we are both just a normal everyday couple with 4 kids living in Ottawa/Gatineau area in Canada. we have both work that keep us busy so we maybe able to keep paying those darn bill's we all seem to have as well pay for the schooling and extra activities our children may wish to participate in.

i'm 54 years of age, healthy as one can be... LOL over weight but not overly. 

I'm bi and submissive also as the title states a true "cuckold" and very happy about this as well as being proud of this.

i love my wife "Mistress" very much that i can say after all these years i still love to see her naked body as well a thinking of her in a "normal" way makes me hard, i also enjoy seeing her enjoy other "real" men freely and openly.

my Mistress loves her men to be average to meaty over the thin side in physical body stature. her desire for the male appendage is a min of 7.25" and on the thicker side. she also lean's more to the BWC (Big White Cock) over other's types but that does not mean she won't touch outher types of cock as long as it meet her min.

her min length is stature is also 5'10" on her lover's

i will write more to be added over time. 

please if you have a thought or question feel free to ask... well all be revealed because you ask depends on the question. we will be upfront and honest as humanly possible.

FYI: 99% of this will be our written word. if there is any grammar or spelling issues i do apologize now as i'm am dyslexic and every post will take me 3 times loner to write to make sure as much as i can to minimize this for you to read.

ch